silent words

good luck to my friend in canada!

2009-08-30T17:51:00.004+08:00

I've been too lazy and too busy to update. A lot of things happened. but heck. lazy to talk about that.

ANIWAY. Dearest amalina flew off to CALGARY without informing anyone! okay she didn't inform me. so that's criminal enough! :( wait i think she told me long time ago, but i forgot.

She claimed Everyone was busy.. so she didn't get anyone to send her off? alamak how can. I was sleeping at home la!. haha I could have like used that time to like take a bus to the airport, search the 3 terminals for the right flight, and said bye and good luck. ALOT OF WORK, but better than sleeping at home. haha!

yah so my mum was telling me that my friend was in the papers yest ( yah yah it was mal).. and so i said to her just now..

me: oh and your face was in berita harian yesterday! 
mal: I know! OMG! WHY YOU ALL READ MALAY PAPERS 
me: I didn't my mum did :)

like hello. MALAY people read MALAY paper la. :)

in the papers she said "Ini kali pertama saya menyertai pertandingan antarabangsa. Berjaya atau tidak, yang paling penting ialah pengalaman yang akan saya raih ".. HAHA and i'm to believe she said that whole sentence in MALAY? heh.

alright so my dearest good friend a.k.a class gossip mate.. is enjoying the cold weather in canada right now!

and and because she is already so famous and all appearing in berita harian.. I Shall be nice and dig up the nicest photo of her i can find *scans through fb*

doesn't that face scream CHAMPION!

haha i think she is so gonna kill me :) In any case do singapore proud for world skills yo! :D

see you when you get back (((:

battlefield

2009-08-10T19:48:00.002+08:00

I never meant to start a war

Dont even know what we're fighting for

Recruits need not fight a real war, we just got to fight the war of survival.

Screwed. that is such a word to describe the week. ask Eagle coy if you don't believe gryphon :D. haha.

dead and gone

2009-08-02T18:33:00.000+08:00

I ve been travelin on this road to long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone
dead and gone
dead and gone

back to camp. sigh.

i've become so numb

2009-08-02T16:01:00.002+08:00

cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

and i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me

with someone disappointed in you.

shortest book out ever. :( made me miss cavin's celebration. sorry everyone for that.
reached home like at 9pm last night? and booking in in like 3 more hours. But hey thanks jamie for putting a smile on my face ((: rockness.

let's see what happens next week. seriously.

2009-07-29T22:42:00.002+08:00

to be or not to be?

this whole affair with h1n1 is making me sick. No pun intended. it seriously is a love hate affair. I keep getting sent back home because i'm still having a slight cough, thus the MO says i'm not cleared and can't stay in camp. Three times now i'm on ATT C. can you beat that? I'm not saying that i don't like coming home, but yah it is not something totally good either.

oh what should i do?

2009-07-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

I swear I'm capable of more. I'm sure we are.

I know what I said during PC interview was a fair and honest assesment. They seem to go in harder on us, for some reason. We are giving our 100% all the time, so what's up?

Blogging about the system is wrong, blogging about what is lacking in the system is wrong. But seriously, there are loopholes. Making sick people sit out in the cold for 5 hours is just not right.

Tamiflu == my bestfriend.

I must thanks some kind souls though. My mum for taking care of me; she got sick cause of it.

Faizal, for getting my medication faster. really thanks for the help dude.

That other medic, for making sure I was okay, for being super nice and for helping us as well as try to explain the situation to us when he didn't have to. I didn't catch his name, but for sure he is someone i would respect any day.

the taxi drivers who was willing to take me even when i had a face mask on! haha.

Amin for checking up

Janell for always asking me to go and rest rest rest and rest

and jamie yeo for the concern! haha sorry for the scare!

2009-07-18T17:46:00.002+08:00

Eh i swear typing out my last post, was such a waste of time. PLUS it made me use my brains. Like hello in army we do not even need to use our brains, seriously. :D

I want to change skin, later then update.

2009-07-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

raise ur right hand,

and repeat the following;

I (NRIC no)(rank)(Name)
will not take Attn B, Attn C or whatever status
for the rest of my BMT life.
I will not be late,
even for a single minute when I am booking in.
I will never
Sign on the line or outside the box,
when drawing arms or rounds.
I will Not
do stupid stuff
like using my phone on coyline,
or get caught doing illegal stuff.
I will not GAIN weight,
when i book in,
I will do everthing
with all my effort,
and guard my weapon
WITH MY LIFE!

and the reason for all that is because...

CONFINEES AND RT PERSONNEL are the most saddest shit on coyline. D:

I don't wanna go back!

2009-07-05T15:27:00.002+08:00

It seriously feels and looks like Cat 1 is coming up. (fyi, cat 1 is rain). Though I would normally jump with joy when cat1 comes (seriously the siren is like music to recruits' ears). I so don't want it to rain right now. Cause it just means that it'll be a hassle to book back in.

Neither do I want it to rain tomorrow! cause its 6km route march. Missing it = Re-Route March. And I so do not want to spend some saturday morning making up for it. I'd rather go home. So much things gonna happen this next week when Gryphon books back in. Somehoe there is a sense of "NO Not yet" in the air. I hate super early bookout/bookins - those like at 4. cause it's like neither here nor there. You book out and there is just that much time left if you want to go out, And when sunday comes around, it feels like it's less than half a day you have for yourself.

Discipline, Excellence?

It's hard when one person choose to defy it, not believe in it,test it - whatever you want to call it. Sometimes ( not ALL the time please take note) you(or in this case I) do feel like living up to that two words. But Because of just one asshole, everything goes to waste and everyone gets screwed. Fair? No. Anything I can do about it? No. So just suck thumb la. I'm trying my best to have a positive mindset about stuff, But I seriously think I can do without that disease; spreading through the platoon like some flu bug.

Must not let myself be a captive of negativity.

See you humans in a week =)

its like love.

2009-06-28T00:39:00.003+08:00

okay i decided to edit this post to make it more erm like an update.

So 3 weeks in Gryphon coy has passed. There are the good and there are the bad - as with everything else in life. I love the fact that I feel more lighter now because of the training and shizz.

So went out with Jamie and Rowena, after a delayed bookout. Thanks ya'll, for making time despite your super busy schedule *ahem jamie*. So I had fun. Seriously. It felt like love.

Well at least this bookout i feel better, after being quite emo lately. so yah thanks.

this happened on a sunday.

2009-05-27T02:45:00.003+08:00

I swear im a generous person; If you approach me in the correct way.

I donated to those flag day tins thingy! Yes I did. Mainly because, i happened to stand beside two girls holding those cans, while i was waiting for Tas. And since she was polite enough to turn to me and positively asked if I would like to make a donation, even explaining what it was for, I thought to myself why not? I mean she did make the effort, PLUS it was a Sunday morning.

Oh and it was the first time i saw 3 Matreps doing flag day! when they approached me and said " bang nak donate?" i swear i wanted to laugh. But i guess credit to them cause they were actually doing that flag day, i mean wether they were forced to do it is secondary.

Okay enough about donations, I had fun playing soccer. :))

And thereafter headed to Hougang Green ( yeap right next door to IMH!) and indulging myself at jimmy yummy. The food was good, the price, super affordable. :D thanks amin and amin's bro for intro-ing the place.

photo courtesy of the world wide web. haha

oh and Amin's bro's place got this super cool sign.. (photo again from the web)

3 years

2009-05-21T01:07:00.007+08:00

Three Years ago I entered Temasek Poly, with no expectations, no perceptions of anything and just being one of the many freshies. I remembered sitting in LT4 for the first time, many unfamiliar faces around me, I had hoped for some familiar faces. It did come, in the form of Xiao Wen, Xiao Hui and Seri ( yeapp seri was a shocker).

I remember just going through the motions in the first semester, being the class rep too. Remember making friends with people like haris, cavin, shellen, wan qi and a few others whom later became a huge part of my TP life. I vaguely recall moving around between classes in HUGE groups, Cause we simply had no one else to hang out with and simply did not want to get lost. And I also remember the times i would bump into Tas in lectures and on the way to friday prayers. And those times I totally will never regret as I found myself a brother. Then there were the times me and haris had a different lab for our PRSP. And that's how i met Sharon! ((: And through her I remember knowing elizabeth and I think somehow that was how i met my best buddy, Amin!

And at the end of year 1 did I truly become the social butterfly that I am; mixing around with friends from other classes. And at the end of that academic year did I get my chance of being a leader in TP. I can still remember my first OLTC. HIPBRA. Nicholas Cheong and Alvin as our FAs. I can say it was one of the best camp I experienced in TP. And that was where i met across Wesley, whom after all this years, remain one of the friends that i will remember. Week Zero was the first time I was tested (In TP) of my strength as a leader. And I'm glad that one of my freshies, Brandon Lee, is where he is today.

I recall Year 2 being an up and down year, being neither here nor there. But one of the highlights had to be me joining TP Silat. Having Familiarized myself with TP, I started venturing out of my comfort zone, meeting people from other schools ( through silat). People like Kahar, Safwan and Syahrul who later introduced me to Sports Club. And through all this, I was thankful that i had the support of my lecturers and friends who pulled me through academically. I remembered how Amin would bring his PS2, and me, tas and our new friend Shafie would play in between lessons, after lessons, and even after projects.

It felt like just yesterday that Year 3 just begun for me. I suddenly had more free time than in the past 2 years, with spaced out lessons. And that was when I decided to take up a position as the management committee for Sports Club, not knowing what I was in for. That was also the period of time when I represented TP in Silat's IVP, narrowly missing on a bronze medal.

Academically, SIP and MP was calling, and getting IP gave me mixed reactions. While getting a chance to do an industry project, it also meant that I would leave TP that way, not comming back for my MP with my friends. The IP experience itself left me with mixed feelings. I had a good boss, some nice colleagues, and my first real exposure to the industry. But at the same time it felt like a torture, being lonely at times and feeling so lost. Having friends like Sherlyn, Seri and Amalina to push me on certainly helped. And at the end of the day, I had something to show. My name printed on the Gulf Petrochemical & Chemicals Directory (GPCD). The long hours, tedious spotting and overtime somehow felt rewarding.

For Sports Club, it was more of a rojak case. Being in the Exco opened my eyes up to many things. How certain people behave, and how some people are in it for the wrong reasons. How bad leaders can actually affect things. But for every down, there is an up. And I came to know of friends whom made it all fun. Sherlyn, Sapphira, Jamie, Wai Yin, Randall, Jeremy, emylee, Michelle, Rowena, Jia Hui and the rest of my lovely subcomms. It made me realize how hard it is to actually lead a club and events that are student initiated. But somehow I pulled it through; Open House and Touch & Go, my babies for the year. And despite all my rantings people like Jolene, Melinda, Valenisha and Jamie stood by me when I needed support the most. And that's how I finally realized what lies in my heart the most, where i truly belong; IITSC where they treated me like an adopted child who feels like his foster parents are his real parents.

And penning down all my thoughts that has been bottled up for the last 3 years, the Last few memorable event left an impact in my life. First up, Perfect Night. The event name says it all. It was a sort of reprieve from the lonely Internship I was going through. And through it, i made friends like Nigel(AC),Esther, Zyndie, Zain and Dinesh. It also allowed me to know Coburn more, after having him as my CDS classmate. And not Forgetting, the two good friends i made that day, Janell and MELINDA SHERRY ((:

Second up for my most memorable Event.. has to be this year's OLTC/Week0. Having finally come home to IITSC ( where it all first begun) I felt I had something to share and pass down to the rest of the OLs and my Freshies. Though it didn't really fell into place quite well, I was happy to have gone through it the way it happened. Regatta was by far the most touching moment i had in my 3 years, sharing the deep sense of pride, loss and belonging with my fellow rowers, Ahmad, Coburn, Sky, Wesley, Mad, Andy, Raymond, Zul, Nic Soon, Nelson the bird, Boris, Ben Yap, TS and not forgetting Ryan.

They always say leave the BEST memory for last. And yeap i'm penning down this last event as my greates memory of my life in TP. Sports Leaders Camp. It was the camp I finally see the true colours of almost everyone. It was the camp where I somehow felt appreciated for my work, and it was the camp i came to know my true friends. It was the night i would never forget. The night me, Jamie and Rowena spent having supper from 2-4 am at the mac opposite school. It was the night I felt I expressed myself in a long while, It was the night spent playing cards and having a heart to heart talk from 4 till the sun rose. It was the night that i dreamt of having in a long time. To Rowena, Thanks for initiating the " i want to go for supper at MAC" or i'm sure what happened that night, would NOT have happened. And I'm glad i got to know the real you, and I somehow did get closer to you after that night. Definitely one that i can trust. ANd to you Jamie Yeo Wei Ling, that night and what you said to me as we were walking out of school after the camp, was the completion of my Exco life. I clearly remembered you as "the girl who got a nice singing voice" from subcomm camp. And i'm really grateful to you for bailing me out so many times with the publicity stuff(eventhough you were busy with school work at times), and just understanding and reading me so well. I totally recall that one day i smsed you about something and you replied me " why you sound so dead?". It was the first time in a long long while that someone read my mood and feeling through my sms. (and mind you there were others around me that day in person and they didnt know something was up). I'm just so thankful that you were there, helping me with open house, subcomm camp, and everything else. ((:

And I guess that speaks of my 3 years in Poly, My time well spent. I managed to experience new things, pick up new skills and definitely meet new people. I know i've been thanking people in my last few posts, but its only apt that i end my life in TP with some thanks.

Amin,Tas,Shafie,Seri,XH - thanks for always being there. I think i've found a great friendship in each of you guys.

Jolene - Thanks for being the Gila Fish that always inspire me to look on the brightside of life.

Coburn - For showing me what a true leader is about, and of course for having my back in everything.

Valenisha - Though we've met like just recently, I think it's our personality that make us somehow click. And i'm actually glad we met. Thanks for cheering me up, and listening to my rants and just being a good friend that you are. Despite all that has happened, stay strong cause i know you are capable of doing great great things. P.S PLZ also keep a lookout for potential GFs for me. HAHA!

Melinda Sherry - I just love to spell your name that way; with the sherry. I think our friendship is quite unique. At Perfect Night, it was like a case of I know you but i Don't know you. Having you in the same group as me was probably one of the coolest thing that happened. Cause we totally got along quite easily after that. Thank You for all the 1 am smses when i felt like shit. And just remember the smses i sent you before/after OLTC! :D I hope it can be an inspiration for you ((:

and Finally,

Jamie Yeo - The ~~friend~~ Adik! means something if you're my adik sista! Thanks luh for your randomness, the Last minute meetups, the Cancel A date to help shar out, the standing all my irritating nonsense, the cheering up, and of course for just being there. Truly one of the greates friend i have and shall have. Will never forget you.

Army up next ):

2009-05-17T21:36:00.003+08:00

previously on Prison Break...

heck i just want it to end before i serve the nation. It's getting slightly draggy eventhough it still is interesting.

I really have no idea what to update.

oh ya, manchester united FTW :D

eeeks!

2009-04-30T05:00:00.002+08:00

First of all, sorry to jiahui, red, jamie, and whoever else who tried talking to me like last night close to end of training! :D busy busy.

And im seriously squirmish. Like for real! I swear i didn't take a look till the paramedics and kyle came by. the last dislocated body part i witness (excluding fingers) was like IVP 2 years back? I swear i had that woozy feeling. So on the brightside... LUCKILY Army has taken me instead of CD. i swear i would have been the WORST CD NSF.

It was quite a busy night going down from school to CGH and getting a ride back home from razif.
Thank god the teammate is alright :). Now lets hope SAA won't make a big issue out of it.

P.s. I SWEAR Jia hui's face was damn CLASSIC went i gave her a reply to what she said about a certain thing. HAHA :D

i understand.

2009-04-29T14:20:00.002+08:00

When farhan gave his farewell speech, I could understand and connect.

I guess we shouldnt think of just ourselves, but of others. Of what he dreams of, and of what he wants to achieve. Everyone has their own goals and dreams, and we're often told to reach for what we want to achieve.

In part i'm sad redarding his departure. I mean he brought the team to a whole new level. But i'm glad he made his own decision in this issue, similarly like how jamie and val did regarding elections.
And a mark of a good leader and a person with strong character is to not be swayed by others and standing firm to what you believe in.

I'm glad that in my years of poly, especially in my final year, i've come acrossed and are surrounded by such strong charactered and brilliant leaders; Coburn, Ahmad, Sky, ber, jolene, mel, qayyum, farhan, jamie, Ju twins.

Seriously, i feel more complete. as for making the decision to step out, to try something different, I went through it myself. Sometimes, you got to step out of your comfort zone, and ignore the high pay, the glory to reach your dreams.

finished.

2009-04-25T17:25:00.002+08:00

CCA recruitmen this year was not half as fun as it was last year.

Aniway Did the human wheelbarrow/greatest charity run event in the evening. In a way it was the last event for me as a main comm of Sports Club.

And for my last event, im glad i got to do it with dearest sista Jamie Yeo. Couldn't have picked a better person to do the marshalling and largest human wheelbarrow with.

Looking back at the AY as a main comm, it was full of ups and downs. The last 3 events being the ups and the downs, lets not mention about it. But i realized through the ups and downs for the club this year, there are those few that stuck through the good and bad with me.

Edward, I think he is one of the main comms that i'm really close with. And he will do stuff without much complaining or hassle. When You tell him what needs to be done, he will just help you get it done to the best that he can, and that is really what makes him such a great person to work with. And i think the past AY i've learnt quite a bit about him, and yeah basically happy to have met him.

Jamie Yeo Wei Ling, LAZYY lah. your favourite phrase. But still thanks for every single thing. Definitely my adik! I think the highlights of the whole AY should be Sports Leaders Camp? yepp. enjoy the chit chats we always have. And like u say always " don't care LA" when it comes to CERTAIN stuff. Great subcomm, superb best friend and the sweetest adik!

That sort of wraps up my AY. Army is calling. And to those whom i sms telling you when im enlisting.. I will miss you guys the most!

I <3 IIT

2009-04-23T02:44:00.002+08:00

A very delayed update about week 0 but here it goes.

I think my final camp in TP went the way i wanted it. Bang and Fun. I really made plenty load of friends, and not forgetting the brothers i made in the regatta team.

I think Regatta was an eventful event for most of us senior male rowers, the tears shed and all, it was the overall experience. I'm seriously gonna miss TP.

Thanks of course to Val for trying to comfort most of us.

Jolene GF for the hug.

Rio, Nelson, Sky, Ah soon, Ryan, James and the few others.

and Melinda Sherry. I just had to say what i had to. Sorry for making you shed the extra tears.

And to IITSC, You guys heard what i had to tell you guys at the end of camp. And i mean every single word of it. You guys are my first family in school. I feel the love. The love soo deep. I know that I can always turn to you guys, like some kid running into the arms of his loving family.

I will NEVER forget IITSC. I LOVE YOU GUYS THE MOST <3

2009-04-12T02:08:00.002+08:00

and at the end of the day, i disappoint more than just myself.

what do i sacrifice so much for? to not be appreciated? and to get shot at?

its a respect that u lost and will never gain back from me.

As for those i've disappointed. i can't even say sorry. My team. The IITSC dragonboaters.

2009-04-10T20:56:00.002+08:00

I slept a total of 16 hours in total :)

haha.

SLC second day was fun. ohh i managed to like learn about the other advisors more! paul cheong is like the nice guy among them. Paul Ang was funny throughout!

Mel, Jamie and Rowena totally made my day on day 2. love u guys man!

i super loved our mac session. Sry to Cher Hao though.

Jamie Yeo. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! :) <3 you adik!

2009-04-07T23:22:00.002+08:00

Today was a good day. :)

Settled camp stuff and played L4D.

Jamie is my saviour. HAHA both in real life and in L4d! lol i think during L4d just now she saved me like 10 times :)

Thanks though for taking the initiative and having the responsibility to commit. Thanks for waiting that dreadful few hours. Thanks for taking the lead in getting the stuff. Thanks for staying on. Thanks for the paddlepop idea! haha. Thanks for L4d. Thanks for going all the way in ensuring things will run smoothly. If i had 3 like you, i would be super happy. Thanks Thanks Thanks.

Thanks Kelvin, Rowena, Jamie. made my day. :D seriously. we should do it more often :D

twenteen.

2009-04-07T01:24:00.002+08:00

Happy Twenteen Amalina! ((:

cause she refuse to feel old, she says she's twenteen. ((:

On another note. It was the first time i was in a car driving at close to 120kph... on a NORMAL road with TRAFFIC around. talk about superb handling. HAHA ehh Ivan is a good driver, even with his hands tied, he still signals kay! haha =p

Thanks val! haha i wouldn't have gotten the ride home otherwise.

Today was a pretty good day. Woke up and my throat sort of cleared up. yay! contacted everyone needed for tmr! Thanks much Jamie :) got to work just on time. Talk about timing. Training was good. Ended early, called val and she was just about to leave and got ivan to dropped me back home as well since we both leave very close to each other.
So thanks Ivan.

and val, ur right, today is a better day. can't believe like her batch of IMI students are soo much cooler than my batch. SAD

YAY TODAY's post is dedicated toooo.... IND/IMI STUDENTS! :D

HAPPY BDAY AGAIN MAL! my gd friend/classmate/talk partner. :D sry ive been busy though D:

thinkalotlikeval

2009-04-04T01:34:00.002+08:00

i like my post title! :D yay!

Busy week! thank god touch & go is over. yep. reposnse was quite good.

I realize IITSC love is super LOVELY.

people like coburn, sky, ts, nic soon, thanks yah for supporting. Burn for playing all the matches. haha.

Ber! for including me in the list, though i played like 3 minutes? haha! and yeah IITSC deserve 3rd! maybe should have gotten first. HAHA.

BFF melinda sherry !
Thanks seriously for everything, your support, your words of encouragement, and i really went aww and felt so touched when u said u wanted ur attendance at touch & go to be a surprise thats why u didn't reply my sms.

Jamie! for saving the week. For being sucha good friend/subcomm to me. I really can't wish for a better friend in SC than you. ((: haha you like got sixth sense, smsing me asking why i so dead. Yupp u rock!

but but im super thankful this week for valenisha! yepp! im starting to thinkalotlikeval! lol. 1stly im like super touched you came to support for touch & go eventhough u told me you cant cause u we busy and u were sick! and and for being there at the right time and place, when i needed to vent! super thanks ar kawan/junior!

okayy thats all for the thank you(s) haha.

oh lastly, EVANGELIN!!!! u owe me my medal! haha.

2009-03-28T21:28:00.002+08:00

Whoever started earth hour.. Well done man!

I think there is more to than just switching the lights off.

Like what Cate Blanchett said, its amazing that in our current fast paced life , people will stop for an event like this. Well she said SOMETHING like that. True right?

I mean it really is an opportunity for us to slow down, and take in everything around us. And what we are doing, and if we are destroying earth. hmm ponders.

I've been really busy. Seriously. I owe an update about OLTC. 3 events in 3 weeks coming up.

but i still have time to wish..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

KELLY CHENG KAI LI!

You are one of the sweetest junior and friend I have seriously. Nothing much else to say! you already know how much you mean to me! LOVES <3!

better not say it

2009-03-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

If my attitude towards stuff were like you guys, nothing will move.

I think OLTC is coming at the perfect timing. Can't be more perfect than this coming week. But i worry for Mel though. Stay tough yah! i'll make sure the camp will be successful. Cause i know the hard work you have put in for it.

They say some things are better left, unsaid. But the things said between us was a reprive to me. In the most sadistically ironic manner, it made me feel for once that i wasn't alone in a struggle. Though its two seperate places, two seperate situations, I felt someone was fighting along side me.

In the struggle to keep things afloat, we come across different obstacles and different people. It's just god's way to remind you of him cause life has gotten too easy. Its because god loves us so much that he gives us these challenges to test our patience and faith. With a little faith, it will go a long way.

Have faith my friend, have faith. We can both get through it.

2009-03-06T00:06:00.004+08:00

thanks melinda sherry!

Only you could understand. Well maybe jolene too. but she seems too busy lately.

A cactus next to an oasis;
The cactus will be ignored,
and the oasis will always look better.
People will always look to the oasis with higher regard,
blinded by the mere facade it shows.
Regardless of whether the cactus serves a better function.

Get the metaphor?
i'm deep. ((:

life's a bitch

2009-03-05T19:53:00.001+08:00

Its not that i'm always free.

Its just that i find time to do everything.

its called time management and having responsibility. I bet it's something you people will never understand.

2009-03-05T00:54:00.002+08:00

The reason i like to read blogs and blog hop is because sometimes i really do come across funny stuff or even inspiring stuff. Like how i found this inspiring (to me it is) paragraph on brandon/melissa's blog.

"Many a day, when u gave in your hundred percent into your passion where everyone is involved, you all have to understand not many lead the same lifestyle , schedules would clash, hence the committing time would be different and would vary in many ways, many longitude. At times you would be disappointed and upset about someone or something, and perhaps because you may not have noticed their better side. So be thankful and grateful of little details when one has done their best, cos it may not be realized again."

Which is true. Like what i learnt during the workshop the other day. There are different levels of service. Something that is surprising, when done repeatedly becomes desired. Do it some more and it will become expected. The more u do it, it'll just be basic. Thus we must always offer more. And its not what others can do for you, its what you can do for others.

food for thought; thought is famished.

2009-02-25T23:02:00.003+08:00

saw this on nana's blog.

"Someone told me never to tell other people your troubles cos half of them aren’t interested, and the other half thinks you deserve it"

how true. Thats why they say true friends are hard to find. ((:

midnight blast.

2009-02-23T11:00:00.001+08:00

The things i stay up for. :)

Some Nights ago, Dearest friend Jolene couldnt resist her urge to guess the sketch. SOOOO she convinced me to sketch a round with her.. AT TWO AM!

I thought i was bad at drawing.. BEHOLD...

in case you guys are wondering, the word was witness. HAHA and that ninja turtle looking guy, is a thief, according to jolene!Now now in what way is that a fishtank with me in it? o.O

That really look like my future wife, figure wise at least. and the word i had to guess was....... TARGET. haha wohoo far off my dear!

A porcupine! by Jolene Tan! haha.

Seriously, I had great fun with her. And many many days later, I told her that (referring to Melinda's tagged note on facebook) there was a line that said (have you?) "Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about" and so i told jolene i checked that in the note cause of the night i stayed up to guess the sketch with her. and and guess what she said..

" i thought i was keeping u company" HAHAHA nice one lar friend!

And because of lovelies like her that i keep my sanity and am myself. <3

if i pity you who will pity me?

2009-02-18T23:12:00.002+08:00

I really shouldn't be blogging right now, but i just can't resist.

I have to wake up early for a presentation at Buona Vista at 9am. yepp. Pretty nervous about it.

Aniway eliz said something that is a food for thought. If I pity you, Who will pity me?

I guess that's how life is ehh eliz? Sometimes being the good guy just suck. And everytime i get stuck in a situation, i remember what dearest old friend Nadzerah said to me. Its amazing how after 3 years i still remember it very well.

" Everyone always take for granted and not notice the good things that you do, but they will always make big your flaws and your mistakes"

It is of course translated, But the meaning is there. And after 2 years of drifting apart, I know that i can still count on her. I got a job thanks to her, she remembered me asking her if she had any lobangs. And sometimes when i need someone to talk to, i know she would spare me some time, despite her busy schedule.

I can't help but feel like a loner sometimes. I hated the fact that i had to spend IP alone. most even get to do SIP with at least someone from the same course. I hated doing things alone, and that motivated me to not continue what i was doing. Some would say i was foolish to do what i did. But like I said, there is no point doing something without motivation. Cause it won't be fair to the company and my colleagues if i was putting in only 60% effort into the stuff i was doing.

That aside, I realize what Sharon said was true. I've been spending soo much time on SOMETHING that i lost sight of the nice things in my life. spending time in the lab, with my good friends playing games, singing and listening to songs with the three S (shikin,shirin,sharifah) and talking crap with sharon, ben and liz. :) ELIZ! we sure can crap huh! and im FINALLY gonna link you.

at the end of the day, if i pity you, who will pity me? soooo, i'm just not gonna care anymore.

2009-02-06T23:00:00.004+08:00

Been reading through some club's exco's blog, just reading around.. and i realized a few things that i would like to quote; no names mentioned though , i guess if you happen to know where it came from than good for you, otherwise, don't even bother asking me.

"You Guys Always View It As I HaveALOT Of FriendsSince I'm In ~~clubName~~ But In Fact You are Wrong Yes I Have A Family There But I
Dont Really HaveA Friend That Will Be Asking Me Out Hanging Out ALL And That
Leave Me ALONE Always And I Hate It....."

"keyword here is availability. no worries. its my last year. and i've
decided, i want to give my best."

Thats how I'm feeling at the moment actually. but oh well what the hell right. I want to make martial arts event big. Make it Big enough. There's alot to be done, but i will give it my all.

I'm still considering wether to enter IVP this year. seriously. Its probably gonna be the last time i fight, but might not happen. we'll see how laa.

I've neglected my good friends of 3 years for sports club. That's why i've been on the edge and on my own nerves cause I bastard-ed them to make sure the club doesn't come apart, and its still on the edge. So tell me again why i give soo much? that's all i want to know is it that hard to sacrifice A BIT? i'm a loser yeah. but It's because i want something to happen for the club. I could have just heck-ed everything and go enjoy myself. Most people just think i'm irritating cause i get on their nerves and that i have no life, but please if i don't push, will anything move?

I mean seriously? One mistake, Two mistakes and we're gonna just let it go on like that? Shut up if you think i'm "crying over spilt milk" just shut your trap. I already KNOW the past cannot be changed, but does that mean i should just keep quiet and let the future be the same?

To be honest if you people think u understand or know me, you are not one bit close. Seri, Amin, Tas, XH, Haris, Cavin.. this people are the ones who know me. Seen me in my worst attitude, and seen me in my happiest moment. And i dare say that no matter whether i stepped on their toes, wether i throw my tantrum, wether i give a black face or wether im jumping around like the monkey i am sometimes, they will still be there at the end of the day, with a smile on their faces, like nothing happened. Why? cause they are my good friends and we forgive each other at the end of the day.

Make me happy
make me sad
it all sounds sappy
but its actually that bad.

let me leave u guys with something i wrote to describe my heart =\

Hurt
Hurt not by what you said,
but by the unspoken words.
Actions sometimes say it all,
It was not at all your fault.
But everyone deserves a chance,
or at least one last dance?
Maybe i should just move on,
But i was sure we had a special bond.
Perhaps i'm gonna wait,
for that special thing that is faith.

run baby run

2009-01-28T00:03:00.002+08:00

run baby run don't ever look back!

I've lost touch with my blog. seriously. The CNY break served a sort of mixed mood. I finally get to spend time with the two crazy ppl i call my gd frens, amin and tas, though its more of me slacking and they finishing up MP. HAHA. But still, yeah. Boleh tu Boleh eh.

I swear I had the urge to fight during NYP friendly. If i had brought my contact lenses and my guards, sure i would have fought. HAHA. But too bad, was doing some admin stuff and medic bag guy for the day. Though i seriously sorta freaked out after Nazmi dislocated his thumb. Now gotta help 2 ppl settle insurance claims for injuries. sigh. poor thing.

Okay alot to blog but not here i guess. haha LJ! haha soon perhaps. Anihows, Thanks to everyone who made the past few weeks fun amidst the stress and boring-ness. Yeap.

THANKS to Saph, Michelle Lim, Wai Yin, Randall, Gabriel, Emylee, Nigel(AC), ZL and Edward for the lame crapshit this past 2 weeks.

okay im outta here. I SOOOOO gotta remember alot of stuff. :D

tired

2009-01-12T03:03:00.003+08:00

I'm Still damn tired.

TWO events in a week isn't that great.

TEAM Temasek day was a success, RED ppl ! RED! yeap.

Open House was slightly crazier, cause i had to settle alot of things last minute.

I'm terribly sorry to MELINDA SHERRY! cause in the end i could not help IIT SCH!

So many people to thank for the open hse. SHERLYN!, edward, jeremy rowena.. my fellow ICs. Especially Lyn for helping me out till you got sunburnt! Thanks for sacrificing soo much for the event. I really really truly from the bottom of my heart appreciate all that you have done!

My subcomms! saph, andrea, cher hao, emylee, mich and charmaine, al!, randall, wai yin and all those who came down to help! thanks alot. Also people from AC and SU! Advisors Melissa, Paul, Darren, Fayanne, and Kyle. everyone else too!

Thank you soo much Jolene for that monday! the talk we had! really help me think about my planning better.

Saph too! for pushing me on to complete my FYP project report amidst everything!

Jamie! ur always doing things behind the scene! but i still appreciate all ur inputs. i really do!

BUT THE BIGGEST thanks to SHERLYN! for helping me plan the program, making sure things ran smoothly when i was not around.. For coming down when i called for help! For understanding that i had to do my FYP project report(still im sorry for being late!) For sacrificing alot of her time.. and THANKS for just being there and pulling me aside when i was stressed up and needed someone to talk to! thanks alot friend! ur the greatest! <3

AND OF COURSE! SPORTS CLUB LOVE YO!

Don't leave me tonight

2009-01-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

According to nana, more people read her blog when the posts are emo. so let me try. :D

It's gonna be a stressful week ahead. I know. So many things are going to happen. It didn't help i got two bombshell dropped on me within one hour. I know i've been bad, but seriously?
I know often i haven't been a good leader. But i care for my subcomms as much as i care about my projects and my main comms ya! soo its tough seriously. I'm sorry for being a bad leader.

I just hope that things get better soon. I really do. those who don't know what im blabbering about, its okay guys. Those who do know, I care about you guys yea! and i'm sry for certain bullshit things that i might have caused. I need you guys just as much bees need flower. :)

Jolene thanks once again for being there as usual. One hour doing nothing but just being there. Tell me which friend would do that!?

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,

Is it half empty or I've ruined all you've given me?

I know I've been selfish, I know I've been foolish,

But look through that And you will see,

I'll do better, I know, Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight,

I'll wake up alone,

Don't tell me I will make it on my own,

Don't leave me tonight,

This heart of stone will sing till it dies

If you leave me tonight.

I guess i need you more than you think i need you! I just don't show it.

omg. saph will actually understand all the shit above lar sehh! ((:

Happy New Year Yo!

2009-01-01T00:23:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Alright so 2009 is upon us. And lets just say i'm quite glad that 2008 is over. Well its not as if 2008 has been a totally BAD year, just that its time to move on and look forward. But let me just spend one post looking back at the past year.

I kinda had lots of ups and downs for 2008. I can say i did accomplished certain things, But i've made mistakes at the same time.

Highligts of the year ( that i can recall at the back of my mind)

Silat IVP 2008.
It was quite an experience i must say. In 2007 i was a spectator, looking at fights thinking how it would be like if it was me in the ring fighting. This past year, I managed to get in there myself. Though i did not manage to bring anything back for TP, I accomplished a personal milestone.

Sports Club 2008.
I Certainly didn't plan at the start of the year to be involved whatsoever with SC. But its a decision, a step that i took and never regretted. I Really have learnt alot working with my other committee members for events.

Internship
Another unexpected thing. I must say i gained alot from my 6 months of internship with JDW technologies. Going in as a total greenhorn, Everyone taught me something that i could take away and learn from. I still am a greenhorn in the industry but i certainly have picked up a tool or two to help me survive!

GPCD Volume II
No one will understand what this is actually. But personally this was THE SINGLE BIGGEST HIGHLIGHT of my year. Think, having your name published as an Author (or more of contributor) to a directory that is being used by the petrochemical industry in the arab region. And think, of having copies being sent to companies so far, that i only hear of the countries in World Cup Qualifiers. US, Netherlands, Germany, Brazil, Peru, Japan. I'm happy this happened.

DALANG & SUTERA
The two pentas i went for. Dalang being RJC's Pentas and Sutera being TP's. I'm a fan of plays to be honest, be it english or malay, And i found both pentas to be different yet i liked both. Dalang was just a simple play, good storyline, good characters and i liked how they used the props at the end. Sutera on the other hand, was a full MAG production. Drama, Dikir, Dance and Silat all involved, making it quite a spectacle though i found the storyline Slightly weaker. But i still enjoyed attending both nonetheless.

AND AND OF COURSE MY YEAR WON'T be complete without my friends right? they made life so pleasent when it felt like i was fighting a war with myself.

AMIN!
Yep Bro, 2007 Was our crazy year. Hangout, Chillax and pool every other day if i remembered. I know 2008 was slightly hard. It was difficult cause of the change in timetable, internship and shit. But hey you're still my buddy man! Thanks for making my birthday memorable this year. Must have been the most filling dinner i had this past year :D

TAS!
Another Bro, I shouldnt repeat what i just said. So same goes to you like what i said to Amin. The difference is that i enjoyed most part of the lame malay jokes with you. Like you said, its just not the same among us when i'm not around. No one to laugh at the lame malay jokes? PERANGAI PE? HAHA. we shall sing indon songs all day long next time ehhhhhh.

Afi!
The one thing i remember the most about you is...... MARINA STARBUCKS! eh seriously thanks for just chilling and lunching with me when u had the free time. Stadium guard duty pe? haha. BURN THAT FLAG YO! BURN! haha. classic.

Seri!
thanks for repeatedly correcting my malay. BANYAK ORANG lar eh! Hope u get a new laptop soon! :D but yeap. From year 1 till now, year 3, thanks for always being there. Through my moodswings to my out of control hyperness, You stood by your friend here. Thanks alot babe!
GROUP HUG!!!!!!! haha.

XH,CAV,HARIS!
AGAIN, super friends who never fail to make me laugh with some crazy antics! I seriously miss having you guys around me everyday. D:

MAL!
World Champ web designer! soon to be at least. One of the persons im closer with in class. Thanks for hearing my complaints! entertaining my nonsense and putting up with some silly things! okay maybe not some. A LOT of silly things. I would have gone crazy in class and thought certain things about clever people if you were not around. HAHA CHEERS!

Firdaus
Gosh bro.. Been a gd year huh. Like seriously had fun. NPCC stuff, Soccer stuff. Everything. you and farshad been great buddies to hang out with.

Zhafir
I always seem to forget you until like ages later! HAHA but seriously you've been one of the greatest this year. U came down for my IVP. U watched me fight. U went with me to Dalang. Weekly Friday prayers. What more can i ask for huh!

NANA!
MY Favourite Gymnast! We seldom communicate properly! But still special thanks for inviting me to watch DALANG! No more heartbreaks for 2009 yea!

SC MAIN COMM!
I love you guys man. seriously! Benjamin, Michelle, Benedict, Gabriel, Edward, Xiao Tian, Pei Yong, Dickson, JJ,Zong Li, Samuel, Alicia, Max and Lucas. Been lovely working with you guys. Hope this coming year will be better ((:

Jamie, Sherlyn, Sapphira!
The three subcomms that are always at my fingertips! Seriously would have CUI if not for the 3 of you! Jamie! thanks soooooo soooooo much for helping with the designs, the noticeboard and the last minute plans for meetups. But i realize you never say no when you're free! thanks thanks. I like working designs with you! yes yes! we must instill some creativity and originality! no more OLD FASHIONED-ness. hehe!
Sherlyn! gosh ur like my personal assistant lar! thanks for coordinating EVERYTHING. From Meetings to human resource to events like CCN DAY. I really am appreciative for all that you have done for sports club and for publicity dept. And most importantly thanks for being sucha nice friend! letting me bully you during Perfect Night! welcome back from your holiday in CHEENALAND!
Saph! saph saph saph. Another NEVER SAY NO! haha. gosh you like took over lyn's duties as dept leader so effectively la. And i seriously am touched that u still came down to meet me and jamie that day! full marks for effort, sincerity and commitment! and same as lyn! thanks for being sucha nice friend! sry i didn't know how u looked like till perfect night! HAHA.

AND FINALLY...........................

JOLENE!
YES GF (GILA FISH) i put u last so that its noticeable!
Thanks Thanks Thanks. Thats all i can say to you! You understood how i feel when i was complaining to you. You kept certain secrets that are quite serious. :D soo thanks for everything. We might not be in the same club's main comm but you know i will support IITSC just as much as i know u guys will support SC. Like i said to u, ber and melinda, IM still IITSC at heart. can never change that! thanks GF!! BLOOP BLOOP!

I KNOW GOT ALOT MORE PEOPLE who have made an impact but i haven't given credit to! but you guys know i love you all! and i'll probably credit you all personally online, sms or sumthing! soo keep your heads up in 2009!

zombie

2008-12-26T10:37:00.000+08:00

I've unofficially ended my IP. Unofficially because there is still report and whatever not to do. Oh plus sports club stuff. useless update. later perhaps.

Peektures

2008-12-18T21:24:00.009+08:00

PEEEKTURES! From perfect night. first 3 is credited to JANELL!! ((: the rest is by james.

Presenting....

My Favourite zyndie!

Boi! Dumbo's FA. I bet he was the craziest nurse around laa.

How do you spell BIMBO? H-U-D-A! HAHA

BUAYA Brandon. TPSU's President! i still remember when he was my freshie. haha

There was like alot of bdays that night! ET! i mean Esther!

We were singing TP's school song at freaking 3 in the morning!

What was left of Dumbo that morning! i love my empire.

DUMBO!

what we had for breakfast!

Kai! lollipop Boy! yepp

P10 <3!

anyway.. Nana! Cheer up! (:

dumbo clap!

2008-12-14T11:33:00.002+08:00

Bum bum bee dum bum bum bee dum bum!

Back from Perfect Night!

Really fun event! didn't regret going for it!

Was in the empire DUMBO! bum bum bee dum bum bum bee dum bum! Met alot of like cool people. Subcomm a.k.a our FA a.k.a Saufi a.k.a BOI! Coburn! again got to be in the same grp as him.

And many more! i guess i had sooo much fun that two days even though i had soo little sleep.

its cool zyndie remembered me from LTC. haha she was going around introducing herself as "my favourite zyndie" haha and i told her " yeap ur my favourite zyndie alright. cause ur the only zyndie i noe!" haha yeapp

And I actually won the challenge cause Janell said i won't remember her name by final clash.. AND I DID! haha thanks for teaching me that funny handshake! ohh and i think she wanted to sign off on my postcard as ( Remember my name) or something but she cancelled it off and wrote JANELL. haha funny gal.

Overall tired, out of time.. but i had fun!

lemme recall who was in dumbo.

Boi, Coburn, Din, Myself, Gabriel (AC), Kelvin,Nigel,Ah neh!,Jel(the short air steward!), MY FAVOURITE Zyndie, Janell and MELINDA! ((:

okayy i think i missed some ppl out. sorry!

wohoo till the next event!

Yikes.

2008-12-09T23:12:00.003+08:00

To Tas and Amin. haha. I do meet you guys for like pool session and such sooo the catch up effect different laa. BUT YES I HAD FUN ON FRIDAY MEETING AMIN AND TAS AND PLAYING PES09 WITH BOTH OF THEM! :D

that aside. Shucks. i'm in a spot. What should i do? Which side should i please?

//lol i have to edit this part abit cause it sounded like some scandalous shit.

Jolene's message to me was hard to swallow. What she said over the phone was an even harder pill to swallow. Why must you guys make it so hard?? Everyone is in on it and accepting it as it is except US get it? I think Jolene couldn't take it anymore when she passed the phone to Mario. I don't blame her. What she said made sense. I mean I never wanted this shit in the first place. Michelle is somewhat in a spot too i guess. JUST Freaking agree and get on with it lar plz D:
I don't understand why we APPEAR so anti social? can't the club just blend in and be "normal"?

I'm Sorry JOLENE. I really AM.

i duno how to face her now D:

and no one knows what the hell im talking about except michelle, jolene and mario. Sorry Guys.

updates.recession bites

2008-12-09T00:01:00.002+08:00

Its gonna be two short work week for me.

It's bad enough that i had a presentation last friday, i had to come down with food poisoning last monday. So that means 3 work days last week. This week, hari raya, so 4 work days. I feel like not coming more this period of time. Not sure why.

Anyway back in school last Friday. It was nice. I was on a mission to meet all that i can meet since i rarely have the chance to now. Sadly though Rad was busy with her HCI, and jamie was busy with her submission too. Mich wasn't in school! ( but i met her on saturday for le femme futbol. so thats okay). It was nice meeting everyone from the course again. Lunch was okayy. But i super love that i managed to catch up with afi and of course good friend SERI!

I super miss seri's correcting of my malay! haha. yeap. I wish for more of that to be honest. Getting to just talk crazy nothings with my friends.

I'm just not happy where I am right now. Chasing nothing. Cleaning everyone's shit. S0metimes i wish i didn't care so much about other people. So i won't go out of the way for them all the time.

thirty-nine

2008-12-04T13:20:00.003+08:00

I'm bored at work laa xD

1. The person who tagged you is?
XH!

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
Sec Sch Friend/Poly friend/classmate!

3. Your five impression of him/her? (five? im guessing its "first"?)
Nice and Friendly!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
nothing -.-! HAHA jokingg. hmm how bout surviving poly life with me! thats good enough!

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
"joking only laa" (duno why this comes to mind) but i guess quite abit? especially those gay secrets we keep among the group of us.

6. If he/she become your lover, you will?
hmmm. o.O

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
I think she'll make a fine girlfriend to most guys.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will?
step on her toes! haha no larr unlikely

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
Cause she took my banana! or because she put taugay in my food! ( applies to seri as well OKAY)

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Hmm hope everything goes well and we all get to meet up soon!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
Trustable friend, nice and friendly too.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
asshole? HAHA i can be idiotic most of the time.

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
I'm able to accept any friends, and still be nice to them even if they treat me like crap.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
Think too much. I get jealous easily.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Myself? I am... who i am.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them?
You guys mean as much as what i mean to you! of course i love you guys! I may be an asshole sometimes when im cranky.. but i will not forget u guys. *grins*

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you: (i think half of those i list wun read my blog)
1. Mal!
2. Seri!
3. NABILAH
4. Amin
5. Tas
6. Afi
7. Zhafir
8. Jamie!
9. Jolene! GILA FISH!
10. MICHELLE my dearest v.pres!

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with? [Afi]
HAHA! no comments.

19. Is no.9 a male or female? [Jolene]
I duno. HAHA okok fine female.

20. If no.7 and no.10 are together, will it be a good thing? [zhaf and mich]
Err...i have no idea.

21. What is no.2 studying about? [Seri]
Internet and Multimedia (same course as me)

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? [Nana]
On her bday was it?

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like? [Jamie]
HANDLEBAR! LOL we have the same taste yes jamie?

24. Does no.1 have any siblings? [Mal]
a brother and a sister!

25. Will you woo no.3? [Nana]
My fav gymnast! haha maybe? why not?

26. How about no.7? [Zhaf]
how abt him? haha im straight plz.

27. Is no.4 single? [Amin]
I guess so. but i think he's attached to his guitar or sumthing?

28. What is the surname of no.5? [Tas]
haha no surname? nama bapak pe?LOL.

29. What's the hobby of no.10? [MICH]
MAHJONG! lol :P

30. Do no.5 and no.9 get along well? [Tas & Jol]
well they dun noe each other. Maybe they might get along fine?

31. Where is no.2 studying at? [Seri]
Temasek Poly

32. Talk something casually about no.1? [Mal]
She is addicted to SHINee! haaha oh she's a world skill champ HAHA.

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? [Jamieeee]
Yeos! haha omg no need lar. we got a cool understanding going on. muahaha teh peng!

34. Where does no.9 live at? [Jolene]
Bedokkk!

35. What colour does no.4 like? [Amin]
Eh shit i duno. Red? Blue?

36. Are no.5 and no.1 best friends? [Tas and Mal]
coursemates.. but i dun think they noe each other.

37. Does no.1 have any pets? [Mal]
Not that i noe of? except her stuffed cat that she brought to school! haha oops.

38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? [Zhaf]
No comments

39. What is no.10 doing now? [mich mich mich]
SLEEPING! or pigging out. :P:P

yay done!

now ppl who got tagged. Do luhhh. D: hhaha. outs!

knocked down. and getting run over.

2008-12-03T09:38:00.002+08:00

Irony loves biting me in the ass.

Its funny i keep telling jamie to takecare and not fall sick cause she's like pushing through deadlines and sports club stuff, yet my body failed me D:

but still, thanks JAMIE! the best subcomm a main comm could ask for ((:

And the doctor had the cheek to joke with me, asking if i had taken some malamine product which is causing the food poisoning.

They say that you should follow

And chase down what you dream,

But if you get lost and lose yourself

What does is really mean?

No matter where we’re going,

It starts from where we are.

There’s more to life when we listen to our hearts

2008-11-30T23:39:00.002+08:00

OMG. Michelle u idiot! sms me like at a stupid hour! i really wanted to go down for the event laa actually. -.- poot.

I soooo embarassed myself on friday night. was at Sitec at expo with boss, boss son, rey and chris. so john(boss' son) wanted to get a new lcd monitor.. we were at HP's booth.. ANDDD there was this promoter who went.. " EHH EHH.. ur from sports club right?" HAHA omgg i was super paiseh-d cause i had no idea who she was. lol i had to like ask her who she was. *i was hoping it was like some subcomm.. so at least won't be TOO bad right* BUT NOOOOO. she turned out to be BSC's hon sect, liyi ( i think i got her name right). HAHA omg now i think back.. she probably recognized me cause we did the ALP thing together during LTC ( that time none of SC's secretaries were ard, so i was dump into that group. sad). LOL! but yeah just like any other main comm member in the perfect 10, we had a conversation as if we were long lost friends. HAHA the power of perfect 10 huh!

To be hones nothing much more to blog about. cause im just so tired. Hilary said i looked super shagged when she saw me at the train station on saturday. Sums up my life at the moment. On the bright side, next week is slightly unstressful cause the big guys are in Dubai.

gahh. gdnite earthlinks.

Happy Birthday friend!

2008-11-27T22:35:00.001+08:00

Today's Blog Post is brought to you by the LETTER

N

and the number

17

haha .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR ATIKAH NABILAH BINTE MUHAMMAD JUFRIE!

TAK glam photo. i noe. HAHA rock on my favourite gymnast!

nana nana nana nana bilah's world... haha :)

quizzzzz

2008-11-26T00:13:00.005+08:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the question.
5. Tag 5 people.

play play playlist!

1. How are you feeling today?
Superman - five for fighting
(hohoho i was like a superman alright.)

2. Will you get far in life?
One step at a time - jordin sparks
(yep take it one step at a time)

3. How do your friends see you?
Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavigne
(LOL! hope so yes friends)

4. Will you get married?
Crush - David Archie..
(HAHA married to my crush?)

5. What is your best friend’s theme song?
Love Remains the Same - Gavin Rossdale
(mistakes we have made .. love remains the same.)

6. What is the story of your life?
Next Plane Home - Daniel Powter
(and im so lonely ur not here with me thats why im gonna be on the nxt plane home.. haha story of my life huh)

7. What was high school like?
When I'm Gone - Eminem
(don't really make sense)

8. How’s your life going?
Sorry - Buck Cherry
(LOL! its sorta in a sorry state)

9. What’s the best thing about your friends?
Lucky - Jason Mraz Feat Colbie Cailat
(aww i have lucky friends)

10. What song will they play during your funeral?
Stop & Stare - One Republic
(LOL please stop. NO STARING!)

11. How does the world see you in?
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
(Hmmm...)

12. Do people secretly lust after you?
The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
(yeah man i cant be moved)

13. How can you make yourself happy?
Teardrops on my guitar - taylor swift
(ironic much!)

14. What should you do with your life?
Empty - Click Five
(maybe we're trying.. trying too harddd. i shouldnt do anithing with it?)

15. Will you ever have children?
Take a bow - rihanna
(How do i inteprete this? yes? )

16. What song would you strip to?
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
(LOL!)

17. What does your mum think of you?
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
(i'm her's amd she's mine i love my mum!)

18. What is your deep, dark secret?
How Six Songs Collide - Norwegian Recycling Project
(Somewhat reflect me? alot of things in one?)

19. What is your enemy’s theme song?
With You - Chris Brown
(LOL!)

20. What’s your personality like?
Better In Time - Leona Lewis
(It gets better in time i hope)

21. What song will be played at your wedding?
Fall For You - Secondhand serenade
(AWW!)

maybe should try this with like a BOYBAND playlist some time. should get a more interesting result :) hoho thanks mal!

2008-11-21T09:33:00.000+08:00

i realized two posts ago.. i spelled mental retardedly wrong. HAHA okay bored. update later.

unexpected.

2008-11-20T00:44:00.002+08:00

you know how sometimes certain things are just sooo unexpected?

I'm glad something good came out this time round. I was frantically looking around for someone to accompany me to Pentas - which is this friday btw. Its already bad enough i couldn't join in the fun cause of my internship placing which is lets just say.. johor seems easier to get to. And because of that i couldn't come down for training thus ruling me out of pentas. BUMMER.

SO back to story.. it was seriously becoming from bad to worse cause no one seemed to be free on friday evening. haha BUT surprisingly (this was out of pure desperation) i asked shikin... and HAHA now im going with her, shirin and sharifa! so cool! Friend of the day (well 2 days ago actually.. ) is Shikin!

Thanks beb for getting me the ticket! really appreciate it. HAHA and thanks Shirin for the excitement u showed . haha like what shirin said to me.. "wahhh finally get to see u after soooooooooo long" lol.

On another note, i overslept in the train, thus missing my stop in the morning. DOUBLE bummer.

HAHA at least I don't go the total opposite direction to where im heading and realize it after like 893458935 train stops. - heh im soo gonna get killed for saying this.

Siestaa!

quantum of solace

2008-11-16T01:44:00.004+08:00

This past week has been mental.

EMM EEEE ANDDDD TEE EHHH ELLLL

i Don't even want to blog about it cause it'll just be depressing. Don't need to add another one to a list of already depressing blogs within my circle of friend.

But i did write it up in my LJ. Sadly i put it on friend lock and sadly it seems... only zhafir is reading it. so good one there bro. once a buddy, always a buddy.

Ohh and Quantum of solace is somewhat unexpected.

Its different from all the bond movies. Like the way the action scenes are filmed, the way the storyline pans out. But like what my bro say.. its slightly un-bond. Because he slept with only ONE girl ONCE. like he didnt even get it on with the main bond girl of the film. HAHA yah i know weird comment, but its bond. And i found the storyline abit too simple? too short? I think i enjoyed casino royale more, even die another day i guess.

oh well don't need to dwell on that. Weekly dose of Prison break to look forward too. I think i'm like the most hardcore prison break fan around. I just find the story very interesting. Seeing how it developed from the first season till now, How the characters have changed.. it was kinda sad when they killed off Brad Ballick (acted by wade williams). But like what the producers said. They had to keep it real cause its been awhile since a main cast died and since this particular season is labelled as the suicide mission, someone had to die. HAHA

okay nuff said. off i go..

and Man united won 5-0. super impressed with welbeck :)

2008-11-10T09:49:00.002+08:00

It Just HAD to happen right?

The moment the train exited the tunnel towards Redhill i knew it would happen.

Didn't help im zombified by the lack of sleep but the monsoon rain, just sealed the deal. I wanted to like curse the 91 driver cause he stopped way off his mark at the bustop causing everyone to get drenched trying to board the bus. Then i saw that through his windscreen... ZERO visibility. like none. I bet he was guessing his way through traffic. it was an accident waiting to happen. sheesh

what a way to start the week. -.-

and so what if shakepeare was gay? i still like his works..

So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play

Netballers FTW!

2008-11-08T22:53:00.006+08:00

TP NETBALLERS Won POL-ITE GOLD!

Yesss! hahaa. SU and SC was like the craziest supporters there.

The match started out like one sided to TP then NYP clawed back. It was so close in the last quarter that NYP drew level and actually took the lead like twice in the last 6 minutes. But all that frantic support gave a last burst for TP to run away with a commanding lead! yayy!
It was fun! fun!. Seeing how we almost literally brought down the stands. And how gideon said "it's sooo worth it even if we get banned from ITE". Everyone had fun i guess.
And i didn't join the rest for Simpang Supper after that. Was simply toooo tired that i went back home.

Alicia had the best line of the night. She was sitting beside me...

Alicia: eh how come the time restart?
Me: oh cause just now was the 3rd quarter.. Now the 4th
Alicia: OHH.. How many QUARTERS are there?

OMG me and randall laughed soooo much i just had to make fun of her the rest of the night.

On a side note...

Friend of the day was once again GF JOLENE! yeah yeah.
Thanks alot for letting me whine and say all that stupid shit.
Thanks for understanding my situation.
Thanks for saying those things to make me feel better.
Thanks for everything yesterday!
Thanks for being sucha great friend :)

I always knew it would not be easy. I never expected it to be this painful. I feel so distant. Sometimes the sacrifices you have to make is just not worth it. But sometimes you don't have a choice. Shucks i know that i want certain things to fall into place in a certain way, But heck won't happen if i don't work for it. But there is only so much that you can do on your part. Sometimes you just need luck and screw luck.

I just need to get away from everything. But by getting away, i want to bring myself back closer to what i previously had. Impossible.

I know alot of people won't understand what i feel. D:

Shoot. get me back to reality

2008-11-07T17:13:00.000+08:00

Being away from school on internship just screws everything up doesn't it?
I know i'm supposed to expect the unexpected but i didn't vision things this way!

Heck i want to be back in school doing sports club stuff.

I want to be back in school going for trainings.

Heck i want to be back in school doing sports club events that are not event mine!

I want to do all that!

I'm sure Benedict and Dickson feels the same way as me.

I LOVE the club. I LOVE the people in it. But im fucked up so far away not contributing what i feel i can contribute. I don't get to hang out with them like i wanted to. Like i had planned to.

I'd rather not get paid and be back in school where i feel the love. Shoot Bring me back to reality.

And off i go for the netball match, hopeful that i will be able to get my much needed release from all this caginess and get that one love feeling that marian is always mentioning about.

to be or not to be: that is the question

2008-11-05T15:01:00.002+08:00

To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.

?what you ask me? ( haha look below)

To live or not to live, that is the question.

Is it better to stay, and suffer all of the ridiculous highs and lows of life?
Or to leave, and avoid the trials and tribulations altogether?

We cannot answer this.

Even after you die you still might dream. And who knows what you'll dream?

If it wasn't for that fear who would bear all the evils and humiliations of life?
The injustices and oppression? The gloating of the powerful?
The pain of loving someone who could care less?
The lack of integrity? The abuses of the government?
The rejections we all face?

Why would we put up with all of this when we could just end our lives so easily? Why burden ourselves by continuing to live?

It's the fear of what awaits after death.
Death is an undiscovered country, a place from which no one ever returns.
The existence of death puzzles us and makes us put up with all the miseries of life.

So instead of exploring something we can't we perceive in advance, we continue to put up with our lives here.
Our imaginations make us cowards.
And our resolutions only turn us into self-compromised human beings.

Therefore, we choose to take no action.

My command of the shakespearean language was never good. Well good enough to understand slightly and to score relatively okay for my lit tests yeah. SO that means i didn't write the intepretation above. (: but yeah, shakespeare's plays always seem to amuse me. How real they are and what life lessons they provide. ahh Hamlett, one of shakepeare's famous tragedies, sadly never got a chance to catch it though. one day maybe.. one day.

I can lead a nation with a microphone a microphone

2008-11-05T09:47:00.002+08:00

I'm like burnt out. Tired.

But I had fun this few days.

Marina square starbucks with afi by chance on sunday.

Outing with sports club.

JieJun's house. Pool. PS2. Movie

But im so dead tired. gahh. i need a break.

I can ride my bike with no handlebars

No handlebars

Birthday

2008-11-01T01:09:00.002+08:00

I'm Nineee TEEEN

i should start acting my age. nehh who am i kidding! thanks to everyone for the wishes yesh!

trying to get my order right..

mal(she cheated) , Mario, JOLENE, fish, Farhana(npcc junior),Jamie, mama, abah, Karen!, Shellen, Pei Qi, Ira, Shikin, Ashwini, Abang, Zhafir!, Kak Ida&family(tt means baby trisha too!), Aish, kelly (npcc junior), Francis, Rey, Angeline(Colleague), Peck Lee, Ilaizah, Seri!, A'in, Wan Qi, Angeline(the other one), Sharon!, Tas, Haris, Cavin, Amin, Xiao Hui, JOLENE!, JOLENE!,
Zong Li,Diandra, Yi Han, Farshad, Firdaus, Benjamin (TPSC PRES!)

and therefore..

my person of the day is.......

JOLENE MY GF!
p.s GF = Gila Fish!

HAHA like so cool lar. She wished me like at TP bustop on thurs night, On her blog, Sms, And through the phone!

hohoho like how cool! 4 times mann! u rock larr jolene! Thanks for like everything eversince i known u! the crazy high moments, the fun laughters, the inside tips to being a good comm member( HAHA!) I remembered going to you sometime back cause of some silly thing and you took time to like hear me out and talk to me! thats very sweet of you! i really appreciate that! I guess even as time passes and even if we're too busy with our own lives i still treasure our BF+GF thing that we have! (Big fish + Gila fish) <3

thanks also to everyone else who remembered! some of you really surprised me cause i thought you wouldnt remember. but yeap i'm sure i replied to each and everyone of u! well if i didn't, i just want you to know im touched and that you guys are special to me! :)

cheers!
hope i didnt left anyone out!

randoms

2008-10-25T01:20:00.002+08:00

random stuff.

Had weekly biopolis lunch cause francis came back from his trip one day early.

The kopi peng there is strong.. just the way i like my coffee.

Chris remembered i wanted the banana chips! haha and he gave me one packet ( cause his gf came over from the phillipines)

I met Zhafir for friday prayers. (more of it in my LJ)

Had a nice chat with Zhafir just like old times.

When they say good friends hang around, im sure they were referring to him.

Went back to school for TPSC meeting!

Okay im gonna work hard.

Red bull shot courtesy of Benjamin the president!

HAHA and i just realised i'm always the most unserious person in the meeting room. I cant help it larr. haha but just now was funny cause i was half zoning half listening and half laughing. (wait how many halves do i have). Classic line of all.

Benjamin: the secondary school cat gonna swim 250 around the swimming pool
Benedict: 250laps?

HAHA imagine swimming 250laps!? lol

Prata paradise after meeting. Been ages since ive been there. It was a ben, ben, gab and edward affair. It was a nice time spent with them. (= thanks guys. Didn't matter i guess that benedict missed his last bus and had to take a cab. And i reached home close to 1230am. haha it was all fun yea.

And i saw nicole tan a.k.a miss tomato on the way out from school. I guess she just returned from school since she was wearing her MJ uni.

Well nicole, it surprised me what u told me. But i guess in life things like this happens yea! u just gotta stay strong and keep on having faith! Cheer up! ((:

Totally took me by surprised. :O

2008-10-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

A POST SPECIALLY FOR SERI!

U better tag cause u promised to! hahaha!

AND AND *points to ur blog post* dah basi! hahaha

2008-10-24T00:39:00.001+08:00

Bryan ( Francis' lil kid) said to his dad on the phone.

"daddy.. ben10 is on everynight on okto at 7pm"

cutee xD

crush.

2008-10-19T18:23:00.003+08:00

HAHA! im still feeling the side effects of laughing too much. Why?

For people who are too lazy to read the tagboard.

shar: haha ehh not always.. sometimes its empty so im at the 2nd last row! haha and i sit at the back so i can see what YOU are doing.. MUAHAHA!

mal: oh no. i should start tilting my laptop down SO ONLY I CAN SEE

AHHAHA! omgg . okayy this is an inside joke. haha so probably only certain ppl will understand it! HAHAH but still a good laugh nonetheless! heh

All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch your breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back, like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away
Going away

fun week!

2008-10-18T23:06:00.002+08:00

To cap one of the most wonderful week i had since internship began!

Its been preeeety rosy this past week. Completion of GPCD. In fact the process, though at times got me up the wall, I guess i appreciated that my colleagues were putting in just as much effort. At the end of the day i'm glad it all went well, i had my fill of laughter though i was having a bad flu.

Gosh It's been such an eventful week i'm super happy that it ended of better than i visioned it to be. ((:

I should say that the WS peeps did a pretty good job ( im sure daniel did too.. cause i didn't manage to see what was on his screen) but yeah whatever the results, you guys have done well.

And i'm happy that i managed to put a smile on somone's face with mr happy! (well i hope u were happy) haha least i could do huh!

On another note, i hope its a sign that i'm going back to my normal self right?

nyahaa. I missed man utd Vs. west brom. sedih pe?

what now.

2008-10-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

Where do i go from here?

I'm gonna be so random that nothing is going to string together, so forgive me much

Sometimes having heart to heart talks just make u feel free. I mean everyone has their secrets, their lies their sins. No one is perfect, but you just feel soo much better after having such sessions.

I know at least for me, I haven't been a good friend to most people. I guess just something i gotta work on ALOT. I was telling francis that i think im an eleven year old stuck in an eighteen year old body. Maybe that is why im still so irritating and immature.

Sometimes i really feel like turning to someone. But i just don't know where to turn to, who to turn to. So much is said about trust. You know that no one is perfect and that everyone will make mistakes, so yeah do you still go ahead?

I totally haven't been myself lately. On the outside, still might look the same, but yeah.

I thought I knew who i was. But i guess i don't. I'm still trying my best to figure out where i fit in, where it all comes to, and where do i go from here. I really really have the urge to say things out, to let known the thoughts in my head. But I know i'll just end up hurting people.

All this surpressed feelings and thoughts, where do i throw it too?

It may sound absurd...but dont be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but wont you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream

how six songs collide. - AGAIN

2008-10-12T22:46:00.002+08:00

1.
Its soo totally not crazy fun to try and meet publishing deadlines. I just realized one thing i hate most in print publishing is directory listing ( like those yellow pages shit). It doesn't help that the fonts are soo small, making proof reading next to impossible. And having like a 1000 entries to proof read... NEXT. haha but advertising line is still good money. Psst. I managed to design a $7000(thereabout larr) advertisement! haha and it wasn't too difficult either xD.

2.
I officially have a huge backlog of work! I'm still stuck with the directory, got 2 websites, 1 php system, what else. i'm seriously lagging, and so i really wish that some people will cut me some slack. like slack slack.

3.
Friday was a bad day. Had OT with a stupid headbanging headache, plus the weather was super bad that day. To add to the misery of the stupid flu bug and piling workload, i'm gonna miss TP silat's jalan raya. I can't blame them for putting it on a weekday, I guess its just my goddamn bad luck that I cant take leave ( look at point 2 above). I'm foreseeing another long day tomorrow.

4.
Call me stupid for being so honest. I can take MC and avoid some misery and rest right? BUT noooooo i have to stupidly fight the flu bug and refuse to take MC and instead work my ass off while someone else.. wait i'm not even gonna bother saying it laa. I guess im just not the type to skive.

5.
Sports club stuff is like overdued. My fault. I just can't get my ass started on them. I know benjamin and michelle are shaking their head. But cut me some slack aite guys, I just need to refocus. Sorry Much. Jamie! I think i will need your help soon already. with the noticeboard especially

6.
ahem! see im saving the last spot specially for this. THANK me ehh! haha
But seriously Mal, you can do it. Its just World skills. HAHA! sometimes it just works such that even when you don't put your heart and soul into something, it will just go your way. And i think this is one of those situation. Lets see, you sacrificed soo much for this already, so why not just give it one last push! just know that.. I'm always behind you! wait like literally!ahaa since i usually refuse to sit infront during lab sessions last time.

on one last note... lalala.teh peng!! oh yess jamie and me both love teh peng don't we jamie!

And I wanna thank you, lady

2008-10-06T21:55:00.002+08:00

Back to school school! after a horrendous past 2 weeks.

Can't believe that i actually missed TP and enjoyed every single moment i was there.

Saw a few lecturers, george, rick, peggy.. all surprised to see me back.

Cut matters short. Thanks wanqi for the microsoft projects.

Thanks my 3 buddies Cavin, Xiao Hui and Seri for the lunch date.

And thanks to Shellen, Kaye and and and

MAL too!

<3

i enjoyed every single moment i was back. I love that pink cat on the desk ((:

Selamat hari rayaz!

2008-10-02T22:47:00.003+08:00

Selamat hari raya!

Would like to take this opportunity to minta maaf to all my friends, be it they are still in touch with me or otherwise.

Harap kalau ada tersalah kata atau tersilap langak harap maafkan, from the bottom of my heart. (:

For all the past mistakes be it accidental or on purpose, i would like to ask for forgiveness.

Specially to my gd bros/sista .. Amin, Tas, Afi, Haris and seri! I would like to extend my maaf. For all the jokes gone wrong, the jokes that went over the line and those that hurt the feelings of you guys, I really am sorry yea bros! It was all in the name of our crazy lame fun!

I must say that i enjoyed your company, the buka session we had at the 3/4 banquet, not forgetting last year's puasa when we had the crazy buka session at Amin's house, the monopoly and the cake.. Sadly we didn't get a chance this year because of our commitments with internship and IP. But trust me, i'm blessed to have you guys in my life! (: Maaf zahir & batin once again.

And to aMALina too! xD HAHA for the constant making fun of you whenever i feel like it! thanks for everything :) sorry yee. :P

Alright to everyone out there whose toes i might have stepped on, many many sorry.

On another note, i wished i still had my grandparents around. Sad pe?

okayy hari raya hangover! haha seri will noe what i mean HAHA!

least favourite child

2008-09-30T15:45:00.000+08:00

Being a malay, makes me feel like 'the least favourite child'.

Time waits for no man

2008-09-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is a new week.. and like what jolene said..

"if today nothing changes, tml nothing changes, there's still more more days"

looking forward to tomorrow. Hopefully i can get some work completed. Seriously.

time to let go of everything ive seen, heard, felt, did this week.

If it meant so little to someone, than probably i shouldn't care soo much abt it either. But i guess i'm not that sort of person. But im hurt ~~fucking~~ bad. tyvm.

Just shoot me dead

2008-09-28T00:40:00.003+08:00

lousy week.

Thanks amin. I think only your week can beat my shittass shit week. And i don't mean to be an asshole saying it that way. But hey i'm still here if you need me bro.

Thanks Jolene. I think it helps talking to someone who understands. Someone who probably have gone through it before, Someone on the same wavelength :)) so thank you GF! (good friend & GILA FISH)

Sometimes it just hurts knowing that i've done sooo damn bloody much and this is the appreciation i get. gee THANKS.

mashed-up

2008-09-22T20:46:00.001+08:00

How six songs collide

Well you done done me
and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill
but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me
but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn
to win some or learn some

I won't he-si-tate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

(Yeah)
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
I luv peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme (I'm sure)
(No need to) Out of the doubt that fills my mind (com-pli-cate, our time is short)
I somehow find, (This is our fate) you and I (I'm yours) collide

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird (Do do do do do)
I'm more than a plane (Do do do do do)
I'm more than some (Do do do do do) pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy (Do do do do do) to be-e (Do do do do do) me

Was I not enough stimulation
Hit by a brick the other day
Just when I thought that I'm okay
You didn't like my conversation
I can't come up with something new
It doesn't really matter what I do
So here's my observation
You could never see it through my eyes
And I'm too tired to try (Do do do do)

I was lost and alone (Do do do do do)
Trying to grow (Do do do do do)
Making my way down that long winding road (Do do do do do)
Had no reason no rhyme (Do do do do do)
Like a song out of time (Do do do do do)
And there you were standing in front of my eyes (Do do do do do)

How could I be such a fool (Do do do do do)
To let go of love and break all of the rules (Do do do do do)
Girl when you walked out that door (Do do do do do)
Left a hole in my heart (Do do do do do)
And now I know for sure

I’m here without you baby (Do do do do do)
but you’re still on my lonely mind (Do do do do do)
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time (Do do do do do)
I’m here without you baby (Do do do do do)
but you’re still with me in my dreams (Do do do do do)
And tonight (I'm yours) (Do do do do do)

So don't lie and say your over me
Don't mean nothing
I'm always getting over you

I was lost and alone
but you’re still on my lonely mind
It cannot wait, I'm yours

I can't stand to fly
I finally find you and I collide
I'm just out to find
You finally find you and I collide
You finally find you and I collide

2008-09-21T01:40:00.000+08:00

"Malam Lailatul-Qadar lebih baik daripada seribu bulan."
-surah Al-Qadr Ayat 3

ok time to do some nice things this last 10 nights. :)

hawtt drawing!

2008-09-16T23:46:00.003+08:00

HAHA ehhh i like the kickass drawing sehh! like seriously. stupid phone, of all times to be assholic to me. In addition to that, TOTALLY doesn't help that they wanna move the service centre one level down. eeeks! On the brightside, Finally something that is useful at east point. I'm soo lucky my bro's in NS. so that means i can use his w810i phone! ohhh poor w910i.. hope ur okayy :(

vroom vroom

2008-09-15T01:25:00.003+08:00

I should really be sleeping. but just one post just one.

the surprise of the season. i mean like yea isn't it? I'm talking about F1 racing btw. I must say that the Italian grand prix, along with the weather being rainy and all made it all the more exciting. PLUS who can forget lewis and Kimmi starting 14th and 13th respectively on the grid. now apart from all the aggressive driving from one lewis hamilton ( heck i cant be bothered to check the spelling).. The surprise of them all was.........

TORO ROSSO ( translated as red bull) won the race! like wow. Like how amazing is that. What next? Singapore winning the world cup ? heh. But i must say that one, the design of the car is nice, as in the aesthetics And boy am i impressed with this guy..

Sebastian Vettel. I must say this young german fella ( he is just 21 btw) really has the makings of a champion, the way he drove under pressure from pole to finish, and i must say on a STR3 car which pale in comparison with the ferarris and the mcclarens - i mean they have an old ferrari engine on their car. like those rejected ones from the previous years xD haha- sooooo he really did do marvelously.

Maybee.. Redbull really give you wings. HAHA. aniwaysss, Singapore night race in 2 weeks! wonder what is gonna happen then.. another Vettel win? or or maybe it's Adrian Sutil's turn. haha nahz.. a force india car winning a GP this season is like HULL city winning the English Premier Leauge. HAHA.

2008-09-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

just stop. pause. cause we're moving too fast.

love love love the choreography :))

i sorta grabbed the video from nana's blog. so credit goes to u somehow nuratikahnabilah.! haha sryy for hijacking it though. LOL

2008-09-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

Now... take a look at this situation.

Ramadhan = no breakfast, no lunch, no tea time, no breaks, less time spent going to the water dispenser and pantry.

THEREFORE work productivity increases right?

well in the ideal situation that SHOULD be the case. BUT lets see..

Sleepiness increases, distraction increases, shorter attention span.

THEREFORE.. we're back to square one.. kan?

on another note. Francis said today i have superb endurance level. why? because i initiated a talk about food during lunch hour (which theoretically im not having any since its the fasting month) But then again, everyone in the office talks about food.

cool!

2008-09-01T00:14:00.003+08:00

I should REALLLY be sleeping right now...

but but but kan! i just cant resist the temptation to post this.

credits first and foremost to seri's blog

Ho Ho Ho don't you just think the words are SOOOOO cool.

hahaa btw cantikk man ! haha

P.S seri if ur reading this kan kan.. I actually wanted to tag about this thing on ur blog. BUTT i bet u would have murdered me for spamming ur tagboard.

P.P.S. I should really read all your posts( or any other posts for that matter) before deciding to tag! XD

shar got short attention span lar.. :p

and i still think windows 7 is the worse name windows can come up with.. NT was horrible, XP no better. Vista can be likened to US olympic bball team ( the redeem team) but windows 7? haha wth! even my mum can come up with a better name than that! yea it will sound boyan-ish.. BUT still better than windows 7 i bet!

haha okayokay happe fasting my fellow ppl! im outtt.

Dont we all just love this!

2008-08-31T20:09:00.003+08:00

Don't we all just love this!

Mengikut kiraan hisab anak bulan ada di atas ufuk Singapura setelah terbenam matahari petang tadi selama 23 minit. Oleh yang demikian sukacita saya mengisytiharkan bahawa awal Ramadan bagi 1429H, jatuh pada esok hari, Isnin, bersamaan 1hb September 2008. Saya mengucapkan selamat berpuasa kepada seluruh Muslimin Muslimat Singapura.

Sekian.

Syed Isa bin Mohamed Bin SemaitMufti Republik Singapura.

My wish for this Ramadan is that I really do remain calm amidst all the adversaries, be it at work or anything else in my life. Let my eyes be open to all things and people who are more unlucky than me and let me be thankful for what I already have in my life. And also to distance myself from unprofitable activities. I hope to be able to rise above all the challenges and temptations during this holy month.
Amin.

:))

SELAMAT berpuasa to all my halal kawans! may u guys have a great fasting month too! loves much!

All about traffic!

2008-08-26T21:07:00.002+08:00

When the public transport fail!

Maybe they should add it to failblog. haha.

So situation was that boss was driving to victoria street. So he gave me and Siri a lift(Siri was heading to the tourist information thing at Orchard). So thinking Bugis would be a worse place to get on the eastwest line heading towards the eastside, I decided to drop off at somerset (where boss dropped Siri off). So i took a train to Raffles Place, Yes, it woul be incredibly crazy to try get on the eastwest line at city hall! Now thinking i was being smart, here comes the suprising situation.

Usually during the peak period in the evening ( based on my 1 month plus experience travelling back at like 7 from buona vista) the train service has intervals of like 2-3min between each train. Now some of you might think, WOW that is really good what? Its actually bad enough as people will actually be packed like sardines in the train. Now, to my surprise when i reached raffles place, the board that tells you how long it'll be till the next train stated 6 min. SIX LONG MINUTES. Now never before during peak period have i seen the interval THAT long you see! and to make matters worse, what i expected came true. The train was jammed pack like a pressure cooker. If Raffles place was that bad, Imagine when it reached City Hall! not to mention the unexpected, or should I say now becoming a common thing, the train jamming its break in the middle of two stations ( yes, im surprised to! they have super E breaks okay! everyone was thrown around. )

So as some people might have known, I super hate squeezing in the stupid train (which reminds me of a comment nazyra made sometime back.. now i understand what you mean ). And the shoving match is like -.-. My colleague Betty now know which spots in the train to avoid when she's train-ing with me - to avoid my mood turning sour. As I was telling her and another colleague the other day, Sometimes I seriously do NOT understand Singaporeans. A packed train comes into the station. And the board clearly state the next train is in 2 min. But instead of waiting for the next train - which indeed has slightly fewer people on it, i swear - they try to push (literally) their way into the train. Now to add insult to injury (no pun intended) they will just shove innocent commuters and conviniently take up the space that was once occupied by the sandwiched commuter. Oh yes and what about those kiasu people, who die die have to sit on the train? HAHA

Sometimes i don't know wether to laugh or to be angry. Imagine me standing from tampines (headed to buona vista) and the train reaches raffles place. so the train starts to empty out slightly so that commuters can actually breath without breathing into another person's back. On rare occassions there will be one or two seats. So some KIASU people (who get on at like maybe kallang? or Bedok? or even raffles place itself) rush towards the vacated sit and sits down, this damning euphoria of " i got it u didnt HAHA" look on their faces. Now most of the times i will look and just go " okkaaaaay" but here comes the part that i don't get. They rush for the sit like the were rushing for Iphone, then 20 seconds later at the next stop, they stand up and get off the train. ?_? Is there a "rest your butt for 2o sec and u will feel better" thing that i'm missing here?

Seriously. Singaporeans.. fail laa. -.-

Olympics

2008-08-17T01:36:00.008+08:00

4 Years of Dreaming

3 Years of Preperation

Countless hours in training

1 month of expectations

1 week of anticipation

and it was over in 9.69 seconds

-.- haha sounds anti climatic much BUT BUT BUT it was freakingly entirely the BEST AND MOST AWESOME 9.69 seconds ( i swear they said it was 9.68 initially) of my week / day/ month!

USAIN BOLT!

Look at how freaking far he left his other competitors! i mean he really can say " eat my dust". AND he was soooo freaking comfortable that he broke out of his stride and did some victory celebration as he crossed the line. fastest man on earth ! well over 100 metres at least! and now i can't wait for 200m race cause the gossip is that 200m is his favourite event.This olympics really is super crazy! Okay things to look forward to tomorrow/in the coming days.

1)Bolt's 200M race & the men's 4x100m race ( like hello! jamaica got 3 runners running under 10secs - based on the 100m men's race result just now)

2)The Men's 4x100 medley relay! and phelps' gold medal number 8!

3) Lin Dan Vs. Lee Chong Wei! haha damn this is a real must watch badminton match.. world no1. vs world no 2.

AND! SINGAPORE vs China table tennis final! yay yay! soo many things to catch soo little time to do it! :D

actually i wanted to say the tennis matches as well but i think nadal should be able to win the chilean easily xD haha AND Elena Dementieva should be able to take out dinara safina. Its sad that ivanovic got injured, federer lost his form and djokovic met nadal in the semis instead!

nyahaha oh well!

2008-08-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

I need a little more luck than a little bit

Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit

And every time that I try I get tongue tied

I need a little good luck to get me by

2008-08-13T22:26:00.002+08:00

Somemore laughter.

i got a very random sms from shikin during working hour.. it read..

" Sry i cant help u right now. I got 2 go 2 the toilet now" - jeremy. wtf! hahaha"

OMG ROFL! Apparently, shikin asked jeremy to help her reburn a cd and he gave her that reply -.- haha!

There is soooooo much things to do at the office. OH! first time i had OT last night. haha till 10! gawdd. the place was like eeriely silent lar after 10pm. and cab fare back cost 20 bucks!

i shall update soon. I totally forgot what i wanted to write. xD

Happy bday singapore

2008-08-09T23:47:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BITHDAY SINGAPORE

haha! yay yay!

ohhh my boss is crazy. he said this..

"give a man a fish and you feed him for a day.. teach a man to fish, and he'll be drinking beer all day!"

oh oh one another one.

"men age like wine, women age like milk" :D:D:D:D!

oh one last one!!

"my wife give me SOUND advice. 99% sound 1 % advice"

HEH

enjoy your weekends peeps!

2008-08-05T22:04:00.002+08:00

why so serious??

HAHA ehh HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BROTHER! who is at camp right now! sad. His first birthday away from home!! he complained camp food was bad today. HELLO ARMY lar dey.

aniway! lunch was funny just now.

Lunched with ZX, rey and francis just now. SOSOSOSO there was this standard chartered promoter.. this lady.. she came over to our table, wanting to present to us the new concept for the credit card.. HAHA this was what happened..

Lady: Hi guys.. i'm from standard chartered (blah blah i cant remember what she said.. and i gave the best line of all)

ME: OH sorry.. me and him( referring to zx) is too young.. we're just interns.. Rey here is a foreigner.. so i guess u can ONLY aim francis over here (points to francis)

Francis: EHH! thanks lar brother har!

HAHAH omgg sorry man! haha. Rey was making weird faces while the conversation between the promoter and francis was happening. HAHA gosh. oh oh there was one more incident in the office!

I overheard francis on the phone speaking to a malaysian .. in MALAY. and im impressed. he used words like 'rangkaian' and all. so i was wowed! ( btw there was two other malaysian born people in the office.. angeline and betty) haha. so so after he put down the phone he came over to my seat.

Francis: eh shar. i need ur help .. what's the malay word for opportunity.

me: eh i noe this one! but i duno!

francis: yalah! it was at the tip of my tounge!

Betty: (overhearing our conver) eh i noe also but i forgot! angeline u noe?

Angeline: i duno!

Francis: i think i shall walk to the toilet and hope the inspiration comes (LOL. and he went off with the stressed look)

i quickly smsed seri for an answer. and she replied "peluang" and i was like "DUH!!!!!!!!!" hahaha betty had the same reaction! lol. so francis came back. :D haha

Francis: eh brother i still can't get it lar

ME: haha i got it brother! peluang!

Francis: AIYAR! peluang. so easy.

LOL!

p.s im not gonna get crushed like an ANT. HMPF!

end of week!

2008-08-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

END OF the work week!!

haha!

okay been coming home late this past few days..

RUBY JEAN TAN! thanks for the chilling session on wednesday!

RAD! hope ur doing better too! hopefully my effort to come back down to school on thursday evening to help you with your project will pay off! HAHA

alot of funny things but im tired. tmr then

HAppy HAppy!

2008-07-28T00:06:00.002+08:00

Yayy! LQ power lahh !

The first time i smiled this whole weekend! gosh thanks man!!

At least I know she's suffering the same fate too! muahaha!

NVM! jiayou babe! we can do it! 32 more weeks for you! 22 for me! :D:D

"different ppl have different taste in design" - right on LQ!!

JIAYOU ALL IP PPL! we can last our 25/35 weeks!

jokerr

2008-07-27T22:00:00.004+08:00

I believe whatever doesn't kill you simply makes you... stranger.

"You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain. "

Well i'm not dead yet. so ..... I think its time i become a villain.

2008-07-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

I'm Freaking pissed. enuff said!

I mean if people can't even look at the lighter side 0f stuff. and being way too conservative and narrow minded about certain stuff then i dunno. Then again no wonder Singaporeans got no creativity nor originality. They won't allow something that is cynically provocative to be looked at from a different angle.

Now i mean we have to think about this. Something that is different is put on the table. Something Fresh, though not necessarily be the brightest of things ever put on the table. But still its something refreshing and not the norm. Can't we all take a second look and go "hmm we can work with this" instead of putting it down? Must everything be all serious and FORMAL? Now what catches the attention is something that is flamboyant. Not something people usually see. They want changes, something fresh from us, yet i see over and over again we are forced to follow the path of our predecessors. It's really funny how sometimes some people can never be satisfied with what they get. I know that you should not settle for anything but the best, But how far can one go? like how do you know you've seen your best? Or how you know u haven't just missed it..

Take a laugh at yourself and others will laugh with you.. not AT you..

i'm just the joker in the deck. Use me wisely and i'll be more powerful than an Ace.

p/s. AND NONE OF THIS ANGER IS COMING FROM INTERNSHIP! sheesh!

2008-07-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

So my boss got me to place a signage in the lounge area... no problem with that! ( apart from ash and angie laughing at how terrible I am with double sided tapes @.@) HAHA okok now i know to get stuff that isn't in the supply cupboard from peck lee! haha i mean on wednesday i sort of search the whole cupboard for paper clips, and I got them from Peck Lee. Then on thursday same thing except for double sided tape this time. SO all went well till peck lee tapped my back and she said.. " eh shar. ur masterpiece outside.... its not straigh" -.-! haha and yea seriously.. i realize i didnt paste it striaght! haha i got suan-ed by all three of them for the rest of the day. T.T .

ANDDDDDDD Dark Knight is a nice movie! caught it. actually loved how the story developed. saw Samsul withh ahem ahem some girl in the same theatre. :D loll!

P.s Angeline a.k.a angie a.k.a durian girl a.k.a my temp colleague HAHA . okok we saw the nice nice moon on wednesday night.. as we were leaving queensway! it was super cantik. but we couldnt get a photo of it!

P.P.s Sports Club meetings are crazy. haha im always hugging onto the BIG BIG biscuit thing, Cause i'm like the only one there who haven't taken any dinner cause i end work late! HAHA thanks eh michelle for the choc! ahaha! next time a full choc bar plz. haha and dun throw the choc across the table! hahaa or at least warn me laa! suddenly see chocolate flying in my direction! hahaha i thought she threw and empty milkybar wrapper at me. haha so KIND of you to leave me one SMALL portion! HAHA :D:D:D

2008-07-16T23:33:00.004+08:00

the weird random conver with mal again!

shar :] says:
whats with the dp?
shar :] says:
ahha
mal says:
LOL!
mal says:
nice tak?
mal says:
i bought a panda mousepad
shar :] says:
omgg cute larr
shar :] says:
is tt u behind the mousepad?
mal says:
yaa
shar :] says:
looks like pontianak! XD haha
shar :] says:
the long hair and white shirt dun help
shar :] says:
xD jkjk
mal says:
SO SAD T.T

Hahaha! ok larr mal dun merajuk already larr! u not pontianak okay D: But to prove what i meant...

2008-07-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

Breakfast with Kelly Junior today!!

thanks loads babe!!

I enjoyed breakfast with her. :D:D

2008-07-09T23:06:00.002+08:00

3rd day of internship ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!

3rd day only and already had a mini party in the office just now.. was alex's and (i duno how to spell her name but i'll call her nicee aunty)'s birthday! hahaa.

so the down low.. there is this like 3 norwegian interns who are having some summer module thing at NUS for like 3 months? and they are at the company for some attachment. One of them is the birthday boy Alex and the other two is peter and siri ( i swear she has a cool name okayy).

I'm enjoying work to be honest. Got a couple of things done, learnt a few things.. i'm still trying to recall many things which are lost in my brain like actionscript and php and even working with fireworks!

And i think im getting the hang of travelling from tampines to buona vista, then squeezing up 91 ( cause i REFUSE to take a cab) to ayer rajah. the food around the place sucks though. But i would say.. whatever larr. haha cause the biscuit in the pantry is niceeeeee. hahaaa.

Okayy im loving life. sort of!

oh ppl.. plz plz dun call me during office hour cause i won't pick up!! but i can reply smses or emails. sooooooooooooooooo just don't call :D I had like soo manyy missed calls by the end of the day. Btw when i said office hour i meant 9am-6.30pm.

okayy im outzzzzzzzzz zzz

2008-07-07T00:15:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA MAL!!!!!!! u crack me up!

the following was taken from her LJ's comments.. haha

Apprently, world skills was known as the skills olympics. it's the equivalent to sports olympics leh. just less known >.>

its more exciting watching people pole vault than watching people sit in front of a computer for 8 hours.can you imagine the commentary?

"singapore's now coding the search function. which method is she going to use? OH NO would you look at that. an xml error!!! don't we all hate that one? how is she doing to solve this one i wonder..."

2008-07-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

WHILE EVERYONE enjoy the holiday....................

Shar starts his daily travel to and from buona vista! cause Internship is calling.. can u hear it? can u? can u? well neither can I . nyahaha.. cause its midnight. HAHA

Oh the brother is in for another extra day! cause he go MC!! haha sadly, i have to report for work tomorrow. so i can't spend that extra day with him. and by the time i get home, he'd be at the ferry terminal booking back in to the little island that looks like a chalet resort - tekong!

ohh i passed 100 posts lol

Hola world!

2008-07-06T17:51:00.002+08:00

Helllo world!

Let's see what things have passed.

Sport's club AGM!

Internship Posting!

okkkk so AGM was not really what we wanted it to be.. but yeah the number of people who turned up exceeded our expectations. too many! that there wasn't enough door gifts.. we prepared 145 doorgifts I think.

Internship POSTING!!!!! IP!!!!!!!!!!

at ayer rajah.. ): 9-6.30.

They broke our MP group up. i'm Sad D: D: D:

I sooo wanted to work with Mal. THAT badly. stupid lar school!! Break my heart! haha !

but oh wells. rawr. Ayer rajah here i come!!!!!!

p/s. Shar will go missing from silat training and some sports club main comm meetings.heh sry for any inconviniences caused. :D

LTC SICK

2008-06-23T02:08:00.002+08:00

I'm HOMEEEEEEEEEE.

LTC was super boring! except for the company i guess. the People around was like coolio. that's why.

The IITSC peeps whom i had a great time crapping with ( well technically i am from IIT sch so i am part of them :P like coburn said). The craziest bunch! I mean who the hell would make a human pyramid at TWO in the MORNING!!!??

Alicia and michelle! the 2am gay talk! + our funny lil secret! HAHA.

Gabriel the guy who kept telling the 3 of us to keep quiet cause he couldn't sleep.

Edward with the matress so we all slept comfortably!

Benedict who didn't stop working till 2 freaking AM!

Dickson who had the super weird dream

Max who slept peacefully cause he was a zombie the whole day! HAHA

and Benjamin a.k.a mr president and the cause of the funny lil secret. HAHA!

and the rest of the comittee. too bad kelvin was sick and couldn't make it. but gosh the rest really liven things up. the Balloon party.. camwhoring sessions.. and the meals! haha like i love them all.. seriously.

I seriously enjoyed the late night run out of school to get supper from macs! and also sitting in the middle of the triangular garden to eat our supper! that was ONE LOVE mann one lovee.

Too bad i lost my voice during the second day. Already felt the flu bug coming before the camp. totally came down with the full blown thing yesterday during camp and when i got home.. i slept for like 13 freaking hours. LOL. sick larr what to do. aniway thanks alicia and nazyra for ur concerns! im touched! (not the mario kind of touch). :P

hollaback yaw!

2008-06-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

Hollaback Yaw!

OMG tired lar sehh!

Main comm meetings and stuff are crazy! so tak glam okay some ideas!

Went out with Kelvin and RubyJeanTan yesterday to look for doorgifts.. bras basah, LJS lunch and Plaza Sing. LJS was funny. the chimpanzee joke. and also that bar joke from Kelvin. HAHA! ruby the bimbo kelvin the gay. HAHA.

LTC this fri/sat D: abit lame to be honest xD but i'm gonna have fun with my other main comm members.

Oh and the abang called from the pulau yesterday. Tekong strong reception sehh. Funny stories. HAHAHA seriously oh brother.. always with the weirdest things happening! I had the longest of all long phone calls with him last night! I bet my mum was jealous cause i talked on the phone soooo bloody long with my brother. HAHA. I can't remember when was the last time i had a long chat like that with him or for that fact i was on the phone that long! the sentence of the day from the botak boy in tekong.. " they had ice-cream during lunch... ape lagi.. amik banyak2 ar" HAHAHA. goshh earth to brother! ur in the army!! sheesh.

oh and today! when my dad passed me the phone and my brother asked " italy's game today eh?or yesterday?" and i told him the 2-0 italy win.. this was his reaction (Screaming into the phone) "YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!! " hahaha.

oh many many other things these days! im just happy with alot of things!

cheer up! everything will be alright!

2008-06-14T23:49:00.003+08:00

The abang is part of the BOTAK GANG!!

nono not the skinheads xD
the GREEN people.

I must say Tekong is really more chalet-ey than i expected. seriously. The bunkers are comfortable and airy.. HAHA ceiling fans babe. and gawdd..aren't singapore'e defenders narcissistic. Mirrors are like super everywhere!. Every corner u turn u see a mirror. haha and they are like full length mirrors too!

Oh met ROYCE at the SAF ferry terminal.. he was doing admin work there. THEN saw Ferrino standing guard outside quebec's LT. Wohhooo the abang is in quebec company!

Okay i miss my bro already. SERIOUSLY. When he called.. the first thing he asked me was..

" who scored? " . -.- GEE THANKS EH!. haha cause i msged him partial information for the holland vs. France match. HAHA. guys will be guys.

On another NOTE....... (still about NS)

The UP UP people suspended PT because of the 2 deaths in a week of NsMen. One of which was the RSAF OC at Brunei.. It didn't really ring any bells till I Was on the ferry back to the main island. Read the Papers and saw the name Clifton.. which seemed familiar..

well sadly ): it turned out that that cadet was indeed a graduate of TP. in fact he was from TPSU's exco. It's kind of sad and tragic to be honest, reading all the reports in the papers and hearing from FIONA this morning during sports club meeting. She said that she went to his wake last night at ONE in the morning.. ONE AM. and there were like TONS of people at his wake. sigh oh well.. Life come and goes just like that. SO people out there...

I LOVE YOU GUYS! EACH and EVERYONE of u ;)

and R.I.P Clifton..

2008-06-12T21:38:00.002+08:00

Days past and i'm left to lick my wounds...

on the brightside! no more of " can't eat this" or "can't eat that"! HAHA.

SO basically lost to SP in the quaters of IVP by a slim slim margin of 3-2. Sadded. Everyone was telling me after the fight i could have actually won if i did not fall/attack in that last round. Suprise Suprise. :\ oh well not my luck i guess. And the Wasit was being damn cute when they announced the result.. he called both pesilats and i was approaching him.. he said " Pancit ehh?" with one huge grin on his face HAHA DAMN. i really need to work on that fitness.

Now to prove what i mentioned earlier about being able to eat ANYTHING now.. Went to Straits Kitchen.. at Hyatt just now for buffet lunch! haha! okay there were a few "ocassions" for the celebration.. which includes father's day and my bro joining the green gang tomorrow! TEKONG yayy!

Super nice meal. Shall not elaborate. :)

oh and on a last note. sports club main comm 08/09 FTW!!

quizz

2008-06-11T14:10:00.002+08:00

QUIZZZZZZZ

1. Real name - Muhammad Sharudin Bin Mohamed Sani ((:
2. Nickname - shar, din and some others
3. Married - nahh ahhh
4. Male or Female - Male.
5. Highschool - Dunman Secondary
6. College - Temasek Polytechnic
7. Short or long hair - short i guess.
8. Are you a health freak - nah not really
9. Height - 1.71m
10. Do you have a crush on someone - uhhuh :/
11. Do you like yourself - duhh-uh
12. Piercings - none
13. Righty or Lefty - righty.

FIRST'S
14. First surgery - never had surgery (:
15. First piercing(s) - none?
16. First person you see in the morning - my brother.. but he going NS soon :(
17. First award - pri 1
18. First sport you joined - hmm should be track.
19. First pet - fishh. HAHA but they diedded.
20. First vacation - KL!
21. First concert - haha some malay concert thing ages ago.

CURRENTLY
23. Eating - nothing
24. Drinking - nothing
25. I'm about to - Go out

YOUR FUTURE
26. Want kids - yepp
27. Want to get married - guess so
28. Careers in mind - hmmm.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER
29. Lips or eyes - eyes
30. Hugs or kisses - hugs.. wait both. (:
31. Shorter or taller - shorter is cuter ((:
32. Romantic or spontaneous - both would be good to be honest. not picky
33. Sensitive or loud - sensitive and loud ? haha is there sucha thing?
34. Trouble maker or hesitant - mixture of both?

HAVE YOU EVER
35. Kissed a stranger - nopee ((:
36. Drank bubbles - yeah! haha don't ask how
37. Lost glasses/contacts - i dropped my contacts once when i was putting it on.. i still don't know where they are xD
38. Ran away from home - nope
39. Liked someone younger - Yeppp (((:
40. Liked someone older - nopee
41. Broken someone's heart - i guess so.
42. Been arrested - nope
43. Cried when someone died - nope. just sad
44. Liked a friend - define like. define friend. haha

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
45. Yourself - uhhuh! well most of the time i do
46. Miracles - guess so?
47. Heaven - yep
48. Santa clause - i believe in tooth faries too :D haha ok kidding. nope.
49. Angels - yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*
50. Is there one person you want to be with right now - my family. oh my bro!
51. Do you believe in God - yepp
52. Tag 5 people - Anyone who is bored.. oh and Nana! ((:

2008-06-05T00:47:00.002+08:00

So the guys have planned it.. somewhat. HAHA ITAS western after IVP..

monday chicken chop
tuesday chicken cutlet
Wednesday Fish n Chips.

haha lets add in ITAS nasi ayam.. hahaa how about lasagna as well? haha gosh all this maintaning weight susah babe! hahaha!

on another note.. how about chinatown swensens eh Amin *wags eyebrow*.

I finally got my huge payout from work. HAHA yayyness kan! haha. Went with Amin the other day to collect my pay. Zati still disturbing me everytime i see her at the office.. geram seh! haha. AND We practically explored part of chinatown that day, for the fun of it. Was at OG and i saw this little girl, could not be older than 7 i think.. and wow she was playing the organ like fuhyooooooo! haha Singapore got future pianist nampak!

oh and this week is a draggggg. Project presentaion for HCIF was erm breeze-able, TRIF is seriously a drag. I feel soooo super lazy to do screen designs. Even my laptop doesn't want to do it. Everytime i start photoshop it will give me a momentary lag.. like its telling me.. NOOO. Speaking of which.. Nabilah! i have not forgotten about your photoshop.. :D just been quite busy lately yea..

And the stressload this week is giving insomnia to like alot of people, and haha we are reduced to entertaining and destressing ourselves with lets see, minesweeper flags, reversi, 7 hand poker, tic tac toe (oh i played this with my junior yana) and and BEST GAME OF ALL TIME.. ROCK PAPER SCISSORS! all of which are msn games that are a whole truckloads of FUN.. MSN GAME FTW! haha.

gosh and Nana! thanks for screwing my brain! HAHAH!! i shall screw the brains of my friends some other day! haha cause i feel nice today.. MUAHAHAHA. oh watever.

2008-05-31T21:58:00.002+08:00

Weighing IN! at RP today.. as usual TP silat the most kecoh people around.. *smacks forehead*

Weighed in lowest in like 2 months? haha of course im happy. When i went on the scale i was telling myself " please don't be over please please" HAHA and the girl said i was not.. HAHA i was totally shocked and did not want to get off the scale. HAHA until she was like " yeah you're good to go.. okay.. can get off already" HAHA. gosh..

Acap was going " YES KFC!" when he got off the scales.. HAHA funny ass shit lar weighing in.

Balloting after that. Msged team manager nad..

:( i didn't get a bypass. :(:(

when i saw her msg " SP.. if u win jumpa NTU" i was like sighh no bypass. SP pun SP lar.. wish me luck peeps!

2008-05-26T00:04:00.002+08:00

shar :] says :
how come u used expired materials

mal says :
coz

mal says :
i had no choice
mal says :
needed the ingredient
mal says :

anyway i used it for my last cake also
mal says :
it expired in 2007 ROFL
mal says :

nvm la its in fridge so its ok
shar :] says :
hahah u are crazy.

shar :] says :
what if u get food poisoning
mal says :
LOL

mal says :
shit it off

mal says :
bismillah jer laaa
shar :] says :
LOL!

I still can't stop lagughing.. bismillah jer laaa. HAHA! its a wonder why my conversations with amalina is always about food. hmm. oh well. med check later! *prays prays hard. *

2008-05-23T00:50:00.003+08:00

Event: Republic Polytechnic Silat Invitational Championships '08
Venue: Republic Polytechnic
Dates: 6th, 7th, 8th, 14th, 15th
Time: 10am - 10pm (except for the 6th)

alright alright who is fighting for Team Temasek.. A bunch of kickass fighters.. namely..

Putra(guys)

Samsul

Tzekang

Khairul Faizal

Farid

Farhi

Faizal

Andy

Khairul Ariffin

Farhan Anuar

Farhan Saban

Ahmad Asyraf a.k.a Acap

Umar

Nazmi

Danial

Sharudin

Hafiz

Putri(Ladies)

Muslimah

Faradina

Aisyah

Nyzah

Suhaila

Oh and for seni sadly we're only sending aisyah and acap for tunggal puteri/putera respectively.

countdown guys!!!!! come on temasek team A and temasek team B.. we can do it!