'When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
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Shar.
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if i pity you who will pity me?
Wednesday, February 18, 2009, 23:12
I really shouldn't be blogging right now, but i just can't resist.I have to wake up early for a presentation at Buona Vista at 9am. yepp. Pretty nervous about it.
Aniway eliz said something that is a food for thought. If I pity you, Who will pity me?
I guess that's how life is ehh eliz? Sometimes being the good guy just suck. And everytime i get stuck in a situation, i remember what dearest old friend Nadzerah said to me. Its amazing how after 3 years i still remember it very well.
" Everyone always take for granted and not notice the good things that you do, but they will always make big your flaws and your mistakes"
It is of course translated, But the meaning is there. And after 2 years of drifting apart, I know that i can still count on her. I got a job thanks to her, she remembered me asking her if she had any lobangs. And sometimes when i need someone to talk to, i know she would spare me some time, despite her busy schedule.
I can't help but feel like a loner sometimes. I hated the fact that i had to spend IP alone. most even get to do SIP with at least someone from the same course. I hated doing things alone, and that motivated me to not continue what i was doing. Some would say i was foolish to do what i did. But like I said, there is no point doing something without motivation. Cause it won't be fair to the company and my colleagues if i was putting in only 60% effort into the stuff i was doing.
That aside, I realize what Sharon said was true. I've been spending soo much time on SOMETHING that i lost sight of the nice things in my life. spending time in the lab, with my good friends playing games, singing and listening to songs with the three S (shikin,shirin,sharifah) and talking crap with sharon, ben and liz. :) ELIZ! we sure can crap huh! and im FINALLY gonna link you.
at the end of the day, if i pity you, who will pity me? soooo, i'm just not gonna care anymore.