Shar.
31 oct.
crazy

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"You Guys Always View It As I HaveALOT Of FriendsSince I'm In clubName But In Fact You are Wrong Yes I Have A Family There But I
Dont Really HaveA Friend That Will Be Asking Me Out Hanging Out ALL And That
Leave Me ALONE Always And I Hate It....."

"keyword here is availability. no worries. its my last year. and i've
decided, i want to give my best."

Thats how I'm feeling at the moment actually. but oh well what the hell right. I want to make martial arts event big. Make it Big enough. There's alot to be done, but i will give it my all.

I'm still considering wether to enter IVP this year. seriously. Its probably gonna be the last time i fight, but might not happen. we'll see how laa.

I've neglected my good friends of 3 years for sports club. That's why i've been on the edge and on my own nerves cause I bastard-ed them to make sure the club doesn't come apart, and its still on the edge. So tell me again why i give soo much? that's all i want to know is it that hard to sacrifice A BIT? i'm a loser yeah. but It's because i want something to happen for the club. I could have just heck-ed everything and go enjoy myself. Most people just think i'm irritating cause i get on their nerves and that i have no life, but please if i don't push, will anything move?

I mean seriously? One mistake, Two mistakes and we're gonna just let it go on like that? Shut up if you think i'm "crying over spilt milk" just shut your trap. I already KNOW the past cannot be changed, but does that mean i should just keep quiet and let the future be the same?

To be honest if you people think u understand or know me, you are not one bit close. Seri, Amin, Tas, XH, Haris, Cavin.. this people are the ones who know me. Seen me in my worst attitude, and seen me in my happiest moment. And i dare say that no matter whether i stepped on their toes, wether i throw my tantrum, wether i give a black face or wether im jumping around like the monkey i am sometimes, they will still be there at the end of the day, with a smile on their faces, like nothing happened. Why? cause they are my good friends and we forgive each other at the end of the day.

Make me happy
make me sad
it all sounds sappy
but its actually that bad.

let me leave u guys with something i wrote to describe my heart =\

Hurt
Hurt not by what you said,
but by the unspoken words.
Actions sometimes say it all,
It was not at all your fault.
But everyone deserves a chance,
or at least one last dance?
Maybe i should just move on,
But i was sure we had a special bond.
Perhaps i'm gonna wait,
for that special thing that is faith.